Your struggle is part of your life story

Just imagine. You are watching a movie in which hero goes through a lot of hardship and problems keep on coming at him one after the other. But he tries and tries to overcome them. Each and every time he gives his best. All of a sudden, he stumbles upon the hardest challenge in his life. No matter how much he tries, this time he cannot overcome it. He cannot bear the pain and wants to quit. He is about to give up but now, what runs through your mind? You do not want our hero to give up! No matter how hard it gets you know the movie should not end that way. And you hope hero will come up with some plan and finally overcomes it? I always imagine how a person would react if he is watching my biopic.

I can certainly say he wants me not to give up, and go through these hard times. Hoping something great is waiting on the other side for me. Finally, there is some beauty in persistence. Even though it is very hard to keep on going, the final result will be much sweeter. Remember you are the hero in your life and you have the responsibility to write a beautiful story. Your life story continues. As I still struggle everyday with my procrastination habits and virtual media addiction and I still struggle to inculcate the discipline required to study for competitive exams.

Of course I still struggle with my overthinking over negative thoughts,the uncertainties over future…”Am I heading Nowhere?” the past “how could I do that?” Long since 4 years I have not been able to achieve even a single achievable milestone. The concept of love and relationship seems alienated to me now, such is long time I have been single now. The stakes of taking family responsibilities are all time high now both as a duty and financially. When I think..when was actually the time i did not struggle? and I don't remember such a time since i started thinking for myself.

Seems as if struggles are never ending isn't it? I had the same view but it did change though. though it took time but I did realise that struggles would never end until the time I exist. So? Can I be never happy and enjoy the life at fullest ever? Well I dint say that! Who said struggles are just meant for suffering? and not to overcome them and be stronger than ever. Struggles are never the problem. Suffering is! Suffering comes when you lose hope, feel helpless, when your thought, words and action are poles apart from each other.

It arises when you know that something which is not good for you but you still do it. And it arises when instant gratification pleasure overcomes your long term growth and happiness and you feel you are unable to control it. The world around you can surely create more struggles, problems for you for sure,but suffering is always self created. How do I stop suffering then? How do I live a life I desire then? If my suffering is self inflicted ,does that not mean that alone and only I can undo it? Just look at your life and tell me..all those times when you felt too weak and helpless and wanted someone to solve your problems who did you find?

And from my experience it was only I who suffered and at the same time lifted myself up and face it and move on. Because there is no one out who can end your sufferings and solve you problems! And it is only you and you alone who yields such a power! Sit down with yourself alone at a time when you are at peace ,ask some real questions to self. Decide what kind of life do I really want? And what are the things that really make me suffer? Tell me what are those habits which i am into just for instant gratification when i know it is not good for me? Also how do I replace my bad habits with good habits? what are some of my hobbies/interests/activities i can indulge into instead of bad habits.

Therefore, what are things when I do, I get satisfaction,happiness and peace..most important,what are things that make me grow from within?. And what is instant gratification? just bodily pleasures from food/entertainment/porn/sex/social media. Do I just want to live for Bodily pleasures? Do I not want to do something good/great for myself/family/society? Am I making real meaningful connections in life? Only you can these answers for yourself. i am still finding my own answers. Cheers!