Your best self is still in front of you!
"Your best self is still in front of you is what I just said as positively as I could to my business partner and Author of Whole Brain Power. Saying this to a very accomplished Author, Painter, Musician and much more was something that he may of said to me in October 2019 when I met him as broken and lost as I have ever experienced. However, he literally looked at me and said "I would like to believe that". If I share his tragic story it will lose sight from the topic at hand. Plus Michael would never want his story to bring remorse or discouragement. So we will just say Michael comes to the training center once a week now instead of seven days.
Your best self is still in front of you was the best I could muster and I could of hacked it from a book title I have read recently. Not sure, don't care other then the fact that was all the intention I could exude for a man that positively had saved my life multiple times getting to work with him building the center and spying on him Coach from the background like a eager child anticipating their favorite scoop of ice cream. I needed Michael way more then he needed me I thought. Life hit us with the rest of the World and shifts happened, some of us pivoted better then others. Some of us were lucky enough to find relief in financial aid and their are those like me that are just blessed to be typing this under electricity in our 5 offices. . Was it me that needed to believe that my "best self is still in front of me" ? When you look around at the circumstances I am currently getting to sit in, then yes it is me that needs to believe. Why? My best thinking, believing, doing, stretching, multiple ego deaths along the way got me here to this point in time and I have grown. Like a plant in the yard when giving the perfect conditions to aspire to ones best self. But do I believe such a thing exists and or what would that mean to the World, Creation, my community, neighbors and family?
To believe in something other then yourself is courageous and very hard to do when the wheels meet the road as you see being portrayed so brilliantly in our current societies. To actually allow yourself to believe in something that you may be the only one to see takes vision, an extraordinary amount of fortitude and heart. Why? We have been taught to mimic the outside World and not to live a full expression of your creative amazing self. So as much as I believe and have seen the impact of what we do at Whole Brain Power training center on all walks of life and have a tremendous understanding with the essence of knowing, I can still bend towards my own shadows occasionally. The shadows that we have allowed to define us in the past and certainly will in the future. These shadows are like the boogie man when you were growing up, possibly a figment of your imagination. We create protective cloaks if you will as children that mold and shape our personalities and define our risk vs reward gratification potential. We are not, nor have ever been meant to live in those shadows. We are meant to mature beyond them and grow in wisdom and fall in love with understanding not judgment or loose opinion.
When we struggle with PTSD, we are battling the boogie man if you will. When I was a child I can recollect very clearly today the emotional response I had to seeing her for the first time. Imagine seeing a women spirit folding imaginary towels in your laundry room as a small boy when going up stairs to tell your mom you did not feel good. I never made it all the way upstairs to tell my mom that night. I ran back to my bedroom and jumped under my covers hoping with everything in me that she was not coming upstairs to change mine and my brothers sheets next. Not sure if I slept that night. But I can tell you that the next morning when I told my mom and siblings they acted like it was old news. They were dumbfounded by how that was my first experience meeting her. The her was the previous owner. I remember my Mother telling me that this is her house so show her respect. So I did and all spirits since then. This is what I recollect instantly and many more other amazing moments in an instance while watching scary movie. The emotional response to the sensory data i.e. hearing, seeing, smelling, feeling and tasting will trigger an emotional response and for me its unsettling. I do not like to watch scary movies, not my thing for the reasons above.
PTSD is a very real chemical electrical exchange in the body and if we are not totally aware of our surroundings and where and what data is coming from where we can be easily triggered. A trigger can be defined as literally falling back into that mind loop of that event and manifesting all the physical response as you once had. You mirror the event. So, this leads me back to the original question. Do I believe my best self is still in front of me? Do I believe that I can handle whatever comes my way and over come it? Do I believe I can do it alone or do I need a support group? Do I believe that miraculous things happen to people that believe in miraculous ways? Do I believe more in you then I do in myself? Do I believe in a best self and what would that look and feel like?
