Are you a mediocre person?

Today I started my morning journal with the following statements:

I am not a mediocre person. I mean, I don’t want to be a mediocre person.

(Really, sometimes I have no clue where those thoughts come from, the words just pour from my mind to the paper, and I don’t have much control over them. On the bright side, they always give me something useful to think about, to write about.)

Those statements got me thinking…scrambling some thoughts in my head and reminded me of a few people I got to meet during my life. They don’t want to be mediocre and, thinking of it, there’s certain accuracy in their thought process, although, certainly, some cloudiness and obscurity brought by their egos.

You see, those people believe that not being mediocre is actually being better than others. This comparison is actually their tool to measure their success or mediocrity. They are led by their egos, so they believe that they are wiser, stronger, more resourceful, and more intelligent than others and that is what makes them not mediocre.

Mediocrity is certainly a strong word. It can be pejorative and diminishing. BUT, in the end, it’s just a word and we can give it the meaning we want. If used carefully and wisely, it can be a great way to describe what you actually DON’T want in your life, who you DON’T want to be. Not wanting to be mediocre, doesn’t have to do with anyone else, but to understand how you don’t want to live your life and how your ideal, passionate, fruitful life (according to your own standards) should be.

I don’t want to be mediocre, because I don’t want to live an average life (according to my own idealized standards, not others). Not to live a mediocre life is to live bravely, seek the life that you want for yourself, and be your best version according to your very own self. To me, that is living in inspiration, productiveness, energy, flow… getting more knowledge, and getting wiser to have more and more to share with the world. If I don’t follow my true self, if I am not congruent with my values and beliefs, then I will feel like a mediocre person. Perhaps, that was what brought me to the first sentence in my journal today: “I am not a mediocre person, I don’t want to be mediocre.” Sometimes, the spirits are just not at the level we need and we just need a reminder of, more than what we want, what we do not want.

There were quite a few times in my life when I felt lost and unhappy because I had surrendered. I had surrendered to a role that society gave, a pattern of “not being mediocre” that came from the outside, not from my true self. I had this feeling that I was meant to do something, to be something, but I didn’t come with a gift out of the box, I didn’t have a talent, and I didn’t have anything “special”. A few times I recoiled my beautiful spirit. It wanted to go out, dance, and sing in its own way, but I couldn’t let it, it was not what I was taught, according to the outside world, it didn’t have enough to be there. This would only make me feel more and more mediocre, living in a box, without the space to let my energy, my inspiration, my flow, flow through the world…Luckily, I was able to realize: Not to be mediocre is to be brave to show your truthfulness to the world, not to be afraid of foolishness, of mistakes, of outside judgment…that is greatness.

Mediocrity is a state of the spirit and we all have the ability to get out of this numbness of the soul and seek greatness.

Do you agree? What does being mediocre mean to you? I would love to hear your thoughts!