Writing is a very big part of my life and there is nothing that I enjoy more than seeing words together. Here we go; Before I fall in love

Before I fall in Love

Before I fall in love I want you to know that I am capable of tenderness and happy endings and that Poppies are my favorites.

How this immortal memory is now close to my DNA and I want to say how another layer was added 400 days after D day when you landed on my Beach and told me, sorry the tide is changing.

Before I fall in love l want you to know that I had coffee with Winston and we don’t think it’s safe to pull down the shelter just yet, for sometimes I can hear the sirens and run to the safety of many arms and other times the blitz takes me and I have to cold press restart.

Before I fall in love I want you to know that I am vaccinated and emancipated, although perhaps not against you.  I am never the less a work in progress and I try every day to be brand new, for me, for you and all those bits of crushed sugar love, that one day may come true.

Before I fall in love, be sure to know that I have in the past loved and forsaken others, some more than others, some not as much as I might one day think about love with you.

And before I fall in love, let me tell you that I don’t need to be the chosen one, that there is no tribe of Israel to claim me and neither must you. I am a star unborn who might one day, shine a bright nomadic light as we travel between constellations.

Before I fall in love I want you to know that I am a crier and a hopeless liar for telling you that I am not waiting for judgment day.

Before I fall in love I want you to know that my tears can be smeared in an indulgent self who likes attention with no pretension of anything else and that I can stomp like a donkey in mid fair.

I want you to know, that I can lament but that I am a sucker for redemption , that I forgive slowly and talk about it for days on end sometimes even longer.

Before I fall in love I want you to know that our flaws are not hiding in the darkness of a démodé closet , that I am and have always been in control of my own DNA.

Before I fall in love I want you to show you our arsenal of tenderness and affection, the little love bullets and our fat bottomed cupids who are learning to play the harp on their bows and arrows. I want you to see how we love deeply in the little house.

I want you to understand that I don’t eat those with a mother or a father and that I like to keep my cubs intact and feel them pressing heavily into  my walls were the doors hold no lockets with forgotten photographs.

Before I fall in love you must know that I have sat at the ride hand side, but was sent packing with no Lawyer , no trial, with no complimentary phone call and that no one read me my rights . I want you to remember that they stopped Printing copies of the “Holy family”, our future inside a meringue nest that never made it. With no Rage against the machine, where ,what we had been together, rusted on the bolts and hinges.

Before I fall in love I want to tell you that I no longer suck my thumb and that I only cried when they took me from my mother

I want you to know that I don’t need a night lamp from Ikea and I am happy in my new bed.

Before I fall in love I want you to know that I have fallen off a few crucifixes but have always missed the rising on the third day.

I want you to know, that I stopped saying the rosary when your words lost their meaning.

I want to tell you that my new scriptures are taking shape and the writing is going really well, that we have changed the pictures and that no one can see your Lamb of God curls anymore and that I turn off the radio when the act of contrition comes on.

Before I fall in love I want to tell you that I am keeping Baudelaire but that I threw the flowers, the good and the bad, the blond Narcissus turning grey as it touches the ground.