Writer’s Block
Jean Marie Beyinda
Frontend Developer | Graphic Designer | Flutter Dev | NextJS Dev | Marketing Expert | YouTuber | Developer | Writer | Teacher
I won’t say that I have ran out of ideas, but I am rather questioning the pertinence of what I write about, whether it's even a worthwhile effort. Most of the people I want to touch with my writing aren’t even going to see them anyway and for the very few who do, I fear they’ll become numb to all what I am sharing. To be honest, I have faced the same dilemma from the other side as well, when I have to consume a lot of wisdom content from a specific writer. It's quite entertaining, but eventually I realize that I am unable to apply all those lessons in my life, and it makes me frustrated, so I stop watching or reading.
I get the feeling that I am supposed to apply these lessons in my life but yet my weaknesses prevent me from doing that, ultimately all this motivation feels like a waste. The same applies for many other things, like news, entertainment, inspiration, motivation etc., unless I am intentionally trying to burn time I feel like all of that content is a waste for me.
The content I like to watch or at least spend my time on have to be either trainings or actionable information which can be directly applied to my life.
I understand that most people actually have a lot of time to waste. I won’t make a judgement on others, but I’ve watched people play video games all day long without ever questioning its pertinence, so believe me when I say that some people have a lot of time to waste.
Personally, I do also like wasting time on occasion, but right now, being in my most productive years, I don’t think it's the moment to spend time on things which can’t provide value to me. Definitely, when I get older, and I can’t exert myself that much anymore I’ll gladly spend time doing things which are a waste of time. I can already imagine it now, me lying on the couch watching boring newscasters complain about the government all day long and watching some very predictable soap operas. But right now it's time for me to learn, grow, gain experience and competence in as many things as I possibly can. There is a time for everything.
Entertainment over productivity
As a side note, I noticed some guys in my neighborhood who spend all of their day playing video games, it's quite unfortunate and interesting to notice this. The takeaway I get from all of this is that they deliberately choose to be unproductive and focus all of their time and energy on entertaining themselves.
They are still young and vibrant, and yet they decide not to push themselves very hard, but rather enjoy having fun and not working very hard. Eventually they’ll end up justifying themselves as being the victim of society and spend the rest of their time complaining about the government while sipping down a bottle of alcohol just to run away from a broken home. I’ve seen the story happen countless times. This doesn’t just apply to them alone, even in a big corporation, its possible to see people with the same mentality.
We are young, full of energy, there is no better time to go at our hardest, but when you see people choose not to do so it's quite saddening.
In the same manner, I think all these content just act in the same way as those video games. They serve as a distraction, but at the end of the day they don’t provide much value to me or to my future plans. Now I am feeding into the same system of creating content which doesn’t provide much value but serves more as entertainment. I won’t say the same about my YouTube channel because what I do there is provide a different type of value, actionable information. But for my writing, I feel like it's more of entertainment than anything else, despite it providing much wisdom to everybody who reads it.
Does that mean I should stop writing?
Not at all I don’t think that’s the answer, one reason why I decided to start writing to begin with was the lack thereof of valuable content from a local perspective. I had all these strangers writing very valuable pieces of content, but they didn’t speak to the reality I was living.
It was mostly coming from persons who didn’t know what it was like to have no future, to be born in an environment where you were destined to fail. So, a lot of the things they said didn’t and couldn’t apply to me, despite sharing similarities and valuable insights to my situation.
When you look at it deep down, the problem isn’t that my content is going to be considered as entertainment and serve no purpose. The issue rather is in the marketing and the fact that it isn't put in front of the right audience. The problem isn’t the content but rather the people reading them, they aren’t just the right ones. In the same way, people might be better placed for the content which might seem useless to others, it's as simple as it gets.
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Editable Professional CV Templates (Harvard, Stanford, Goldman Sachs …)I won’t say that I have ran out of ideas, but I am rather questioning the pertinence of what I write about, whether it's even a worthwhile effort. Most of the people I want to touch with my writing aren’t even going to see them anyway and for the very few who do, I fear they’ll become numb to all what I am sharing. To be honest, I have faced the same dilemma from the other side as well, when I have to consume a lot of wisdom content from a specific writer. It's quite entertaining, but eventually I realize that I am unable to apply all those lessons in my life, and it makes me frustrated, so I stop watching or reading.
I get the feeling that I am supposed to apply these lessons in my life but yet my weaknesses prevent me from doing that, ultimately all this motivation feels like a waste. The same applies for many other things, like news, entertainment, inspiration, motivation etc., unless I am intentionally trying to burn time I feel like all of that content is a waste for me.
The content I like to watch or at least spend my time on have to be either trainings or actionable information which can be directly applied to my life.
I understand that most people actually have a lot of time to waste. I won’t make a judgement on others, but I’ve watched people play video games all day long without ever questioning its pertinence, so believe me when I say that some people have a lot of time to waste.
Personally, I do also like wasting time on occasion, but right now, being in my most productive years, I don’t think it's the moment to spend time on things which can’t provide value to me. Definitely, when I get older, and I can’t exert myself that much anymore I’ll gladly spend time doing things which are a waste of time. I can already imagine it now, me lying on the couch watching boring newscasters complain about the government all day long and watching some very predictable soap operas. But right now it's time for me to learn, grow, gain experience and competence in as many things as I possibly can. There is a time for everything.
Entertainment over productivity
As a side note, I noticed some guys in my neighborhood who spend all of their day playing video games, it's quite unfortunate and interesting to notice this. The takeaway I get from all of this is that they deliberately choose to be unproductive and focus all of their time and energy on entertaining themselves.
They are still young and vibrant, and yet they decide not to push themselves very hard, but rather enjoy having fun and not working very hard. Eventually they’ll end up justifying themselves as being the victim of society and spend the rest of their time complaining about the government while sipping down a bottle of alcohol just to run away from a broken home. I’ve seen the story happen countless times. This doesn’t just apply to them alone, even in a big corporation, its possible to see people with the same mentality.
We are young, full of energy, there is no better time to go at our hardest, but when you see people choose not to do so it's quite saddening.
In the same manner, I think all these content just act in the same way as those video games. They serve as a distraction, but at the end of the day they don’t provide much value to me or to my future plans. Now I am feeding into the same system of creating content which doesn’t provide much value but serves more as entertainment. I won’t say the same about my YouTube channel because what I do there is provide a different type of value, actionable information. But for my writing, I feel like it's more of entertainment than anything else, despite it providing much wisdom to everybody who reads it.
Does that mean I should stop writing?
Not at all I don’t think that’s the answer, one reason why I decided to start writing to begin with was the lack thereof of valuable content from a local perspective. I had all these strangers writing very valuable pieces of content, but they didn’t speak to the reality I was living.
It was mostly coming from persons who didn’t know what it was like to have no future, to be born in an environment where you were destined to fail. So, a lot of the things they said didn’t and couldn’t apply to me, despite sharing similarities and valuable insights to my situation.
When you look at it deep down, the problem isn’t that my content is going to be considered as entertainment and serve no purpose. The issue rather is in the marketing and the fact that it isn't put in front of the right audience. The problem isn’t the content but rather the people reading them, they aren’t just the right ones. In the same way, people might be better placed for the content which might seem useless to others, it's as simple as it gets.
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