Words can't explain what is going on in your heart
Kishore Shintre
#newdaynewchapter is a Blog narrative started on March 1, 2021 co-founded by Kishore Shintre & Sonia Bedi, to write a new chapter everyday for making "Life" and not just making a "living"
For most people, it doesn't affect them, they simply do this sort of thin, and then move on but for others it's distressing. For my own part, in those situations I do one of the following:Listen to or look up music that has the words or melody that feel correct to my inner turmoil and then I listen to it for “company". I describe what I feel with an example, e.g: “that vibe when you look out of the window and it's cloudy and rainy and you know its no big deal but it feels like you're on the end of a pier and the whole world's population just got on a boat and sailed away and your screaming for them to wait for you but no one turns to look and the only comfort you have is tears stinging your face"
Distract myself with prayer, exercise, gaming, gardening or thinking about others or doing something for others. Try not to self isolate even if it feels like I have to. In this scenario I really think this is when anyone can benefit most from some type of exercise. Even getting outside for a run, hike, walk etc. A long drive or cruise on a motorcycle in the countryside without traffic might help too. Or anything else that gets you outside of your own mind for a while. Best of luck to you, I've been there before.
Events happen to us for which there are simply no words to describe, language is very limited when it comes to feelings of the heart and mind, soul and spirit. I have learnt you just have to live with some things alone. Of course you can always have a self chat about whatever it is knowing that both of you will understand the other. Not everything is meant to be shared with others. What is going on in your heart and mind can be pleasant or painful. Either way it is exaggeration to say that no word can explain it. Find out the words to describe it. Your own mother tongue is the best medium to describe it.
Don't give too much importance to any pleasure or pain. It is not beyond your power to bear any pleasure or pain. Initially it appears very intense but with passage of time intensity comes down and pleasure or pain does not appear so intense as initially. In Christianity, confession is magical. Stand or sit before your God or a figure you revert and verbalise your pleasure or pain as clearly as possible. When you have adequately described it, you will find peace and strength to bear it. I have done it many times and reaped benefits.
Life is full of pleasure and pains. You can't single out any pleasure or pain and be obsessed with it. You can't amass pleasure or pain. You have to let it go howsoever intense it may be so that you are ready for another. Sometimes really no word can do that, but at all times a lot of sentences can. We are lazy to think as much as required to figure out what's going on in the insides. But if you can put aside an hour for this and do it nice and easy, i'll tell you how.
You will need: A pen, a paper and some patience. Now ask yourself something that you need an answer for, write it down in form of a question. Your mind will start talking, go one sentence at a time and it will lead to all answers. Just do this and see, but be completely free of all of the chores and worries when you sit down to do this. If that is the case, then, you should learn to wait until you find the right words to describe and/or explain what is going on in your heart and mind. But how you reacted to stimulus would give you an idea.
Whatever you can listen to, is always going to be the mind! Before going into this any further is it not important to first see what is this Heart and Mind? Not complicating things much, let me come to it in a few lines: Mind: Flux of thoughts; composed of whatever you have acquired through your limited senses in the limited period of time you have lived. Heart: The very Source of mind. (I hope you understand the Heart we are talking about here is the symbolic one, not the one which pumps blood, that's just a machine, nowadays replaced by pacemaker, so it's not that Heart we really want to talk about)
So, whatever you can hear inside your head is going to be limited, coming from your limited memory. This limited-ness won't help you through life, depending on this you will always take the predefined decisions, kind of living by algorithms. So, now what's the voice of the Heart? If everything which I can hear is just the contents of my mind in different permutations and combinations, how can I know the voice of the Heart? See, here lies the catch: Sometimes you just know what to do. You don't come to a conclusion by your analytical thought process. You come close to a situation and you know what needs to be done, but that can happen only when your mind is at it's 'right' place. Your thoughts have not become very important to you.
The voice of the 'real' Heart, in some sense is your all time companion and yet you will not be able to listen to it in the way you listen your normal day to day voices from outside and your conscience which is nothing but just your mind-stuff (all that which has come from outside) personified. Understand the difference between 'You' and your conscience. Understand how are your influenced by conditions outside of you, see from where all your decisions come. This very 'seeing' will tell you what to do. Cheers!