Why I'm Giving Up and Why You Should Too

This was the headline for an article I started writing last year about my photography career. I was in a really bad space and I was going to sell my camera.

With Covid lockdowns, a few rejections and a few photoshoots which failed to come to fruition, it had me sulking and being in a terrible mental health place.

I was really going to give up the thing I'm most passionate about. My photography.

I was really going to throw away all my dreams, goals, ambitions, but even worse 4 years of investing my time, energy, resources, money into photography.

I spent a few hours with my brother who consoled me, validated my feelings and made me understand that quitting is for losers and I'm no loser. Quitting is for those who don't believe in the possibilities the future of life has to offer. Quitting is for those who have no hope. You need hope to be able to survive in this life.

I realized that I've accomplished so much, had so many INSANE experiences with some of the coolest most famous people in the world that so many people would give anything to have. I realized how many blessings I have and how blessed I am to be in the position I'm in!

Immediately after our conversation I decided that I will not let life control me, I will control my own life!

I found a place in Los Angeles, worked really hard trying to get more work and put on a new face.

I'm nowhere near where I want to be when it comes to my career, but I know that it's only a matter of perfecting my craft, networking like CRAZY, exercising extreme discipline and consistency, which will then take me to the next level.

Some of my friends call me delusional, and they are probably correct with their assessment, and what about it...?

A tad of delusion is required when working in Hollywood. (Inserts wink emoji)

"Hope is dangerous thing for me to have, but I have it."