Where I am at today
Michael Padurano
Mostly back from my hiatus, I will be ignoring quazi audio events, as well, I will be leaving notifications off on my phone. I will be around as called to. Focusing on "My enchanted life of misunderstood miracles."
Dear World,
First off this is probably not a topic for LinkedIn, but I have put years of my life into building this network strategically and it has always been my primary social media platform.
I have spent my whole life running and hiding from myself, always trying to be whatever the situation needed me to be. It led to hurt and pain upon others and that was never my intent, but it did. For that I apologize, most I will never be able to make amends to but I will spend the rest of my life being me and my best self.
After years of hiding behind drugs and alcohol and making many mistakes and always find others to blame, on June 19, 2006, I got sober. During this process, I made amends and helped countless others, but never forgave myself. As well I continued to make some of those same mistakes sober and instead blamed myself and beat myself up and thought i deserved the pain.
It is now over 14 years later that I am forgiving myself, as I am doing deep work to create my self worth and with the goal of loving myself. I still make mistakes and I am on quite the emotional rollercoaster as this is so new to me at 41, but I am growing, evolving, progressing, and learning to accept and love the process.
The pain is growth but at times I fall into old habits and believe I deserve the pain, I refuse to allow myself to hold me back anymore. I am on a mission to love myself and be my best self daily, with all I have overcome this will not stop me either.
During this time I might be more erratic as I am growing through my past pains and releasing them and their control over me. I say this not as an excuse but to own my process. I am putting this out there not for any other reason but to hold myself accountable to the world.
I am done wasting my energy keeping up with TV shows or other things and using them as my outlet or ways to avoid myself, I will start to put my energy into myself and being the best person I can be for everyone I love. I owe it to myself and those that have stood by me, for a short or long time in my life. As well over time people that do not fit in my life will slowly remove themselves as it does not work for them. I understand and forgive myself for that as well.
Everyone has a purpose in this life and it is time for me to live mine.
Love & internal peace,
Michael
Research Laboratory Manager - Certified Electron Microscopy Technologist - High Resolution Electron Microscopy Facility
4 年Michael Padurano , Such a beautifully well articulated and eloquently stated heartfelt post from a beautiful gem of a gentleman a human being and a friend of mine and to millions who shares his goodness with others for the betterment of humankind!!!! Your nuggets of wisdom inspiration understanding compassion encouragement support enthusiasm empathy caring love determination perseverance positivity patience strength resilience goodness sound like scrumptiously deliciously ediblely tasty good music to my ears sir!!! You are human just like the rest of us, so forgive yourself learn grow and develop into the better version of yourself to help yourself and others, baby!!!!! SAVOR the FLAVOR of loving yourself for YOU!! We love you! I love you dearly friend!!!??????
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4 年1) #VOICEYOURVIBE?? I’m so so proud of you for writing this brother. And all the steps you have taken and will continue to take. 2) Right here supporting you every step of the journey. Love you my man.
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4 年Keep at it Mike. Gods got your back.