When I was Fifteen..

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When I was fifteen I was a completely different person. I wanted to change the world, I wanted to save the World (I don't know from whom, I just did) and most importantly, I thought I was capable of doing all those things. I was eagerly waiting for the big turning point in my life (that happens to everybody in the movies right?) I was fooled by so many fantasies and unrealistic scenarios that when things did not turn out the way I imagined it to, it hit me pretty hard. I grew up hearing that I was smart, intelligent and confident. Little did I know, the adjectives were limited to the walls of my classroom. I was seventeen when I first got to know that I wasn't any of those three words. I realized I was hardly in the "below average" category of those three words according to the standards set by the world. And I changed. I thought I was growing up and understanding the real world. But guess what? I was wrong. Again.

Seven years later, now I know that my Fifteen-year-old-self wasn't being stupid or ghastly unrealistic, it was the older me that was wrong in thinking I could never be what I dreamt of becoming. If I could go back in time I would keep believing in what I did when I was Fifteen but instead of waiting for a miracle, I would tell my younger self to not give up so easily.

Maybe then, I wouldn't have had to keep trying to gain back what I once had for so many years because the loss was tremendous.

Happy 15th Birthday Linkedin.