What is your biggest fear?
Ramanuj Mukherjee
Built iPleaders, a blawg with 2 mil/m users & bootstrapped LawSikho/ Addictive Learning to listing. Currently building an army of freelancers & paralegals from Asia & Africa to disrupt the 300 billion US legal industry.
My biggest fear is that I will not amount to anything, and my life will be a waste. All the people who said that I will fail in life will be proven true. I always thought highly of myself, and maybe I am wrong. Maybe I am just an idiot as my father suggested many times.
Maybe all the projects I started are actually too big for me and I will never succeed. Maybe I will never leave behind an institution as I hoped to, but it will all crumble down before my eyes. All my life's work, sacrifices, ideas will go up in smoke during one single nightmarish meltdown.
Maybe I should have just stuck to corporate lawyering. Maybe I was wrong to start up and then to stick to the same work for 6 years. After all, a lot of people said and thought that it is a fool's errand. Maybe I will die poor and miserable because of these wrong decisions.
Maybe I will never get to see the world. I have been to a total 5 countries apart from India in my life. Maybe I will never get to experience how wonderful the world is.
Maybe the years of smoking will catch up and I will get cancer. Maybe I will be a fat slob for the rest of my life and never overcome my laziness.
Maybe I will live an unhappy life, with no peace, fighting and bickering every day with my wife, seething in a disturbing emotional munchow soup.
Maybe India will become a Hindu version of Pakistan or Saudi Arabia and not remain world's largest democracy. The constitution will be torn apart, and the values we loved and admired about our country will be tossed aside. Maybe then I will want to leave India forever.
Maybe I will never be the amazing person that I thought I am. Maybe I will never achieve my potential. Maybe I will never live the remarkable life I wanted to live.
These are my worst fears. I wrote them down honestly so that I finally can see on one page what really matters to me. I can also see how scary and debilitating these fears are and I am proud that they have never stopped me from pursuing my dreams. I still dream big, I still work hard, I still get up when I fall. No matter how big, my fears have never been bigger than my determination and clarity of purpose,
What are your biggest fears? Are they stopping you from chasing your dreams?
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7 年sir, i too share some similar fears with u n me too hav dealt with them in the same manner u did ( almost all). I was a boy whose father had stopped supporting family when he was just 12 and who had to face this cruel and at the same time lovely world along with his mother and sister. Still i kept dreaming big and luckily i hav succeeded in achieving almost all my dreams except those which can be achieved when their time will come. But one of my last dream was not only to study but to become an expert in my subject n have an in depth knowledge. I always wanted to become a blogger and a book and articles writer and also wanted to be at least as competent as no one can say that i m a scar on this profession n not doing justice to my profession or to those who follow me or are related to me professionally. n that’s my biggest fear that may b i can't do this which stopped me from taking any steps towards it. Today i have achieved a lot and have everything ( at least what everyone wants in terms of money in this world) except these skills and qualities which i think i need to improve and sharpen to say that i hav achieved all my dreams. And after i possess these skills then only i wiill be able to proceed towards my last dream of contributing to society and country, specially for those people like me who didn't got their opportunities they deserved because of various reasons. Luckily again, that i visited nujs site from where i got in contact with ipleaders and through various dramatic situations from there i not only got to know you but lucky enough to talk to you yesterday. Sir i hope now i will soon be able to improve few of my skills which are not as good as they need to be and achieve this dream also by overcoming my last fear which till now i couldn't . thnks sir for being there as a hope and inspiration for people like me.
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7 年I started writing them in the form of blog.. https://fight4ruleoflaw.blogspot.in/ and decided to write regularly.
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7 年Fear is actually needed for the thrill of conquering it. Doesn't mean I will board wild rollercoasters! I am scared of heights.
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7 年My fear is maybe I will never discover my passion and will be stuck in doing the work I so dislike doing and I don't want that. Great article Sir. I always look forward to your articles. :)