What does home mean to you?

As the year 2019 close & we enter a new decade, this coming 2020 year has many questions for me to address & thankfully enough I had the courage to face them earlier than what I am normally used to due to drawbacks & over-thinking bearing in mind the inaccuracies & dysfunctions I have dealt with years in years out. The concept of home I have found will always be illusive & a constant chase of utopia & daily habits (both good & bad) in order for us to find that zen & sweet spot in order to adapt to change. For years, I tried pinning a successful life in a job, or career path & to the point that I was so convinced that you had to have a certain title or accolade to rid yourself of unnecessary mental debris to bring you a sense of self worth & value. I tried to fill myself up with knowledge, wisdom & understanding to brighten up the day yet all of it was void at each day's end as I did it for years, countless failures along the way. I couldn't understand the process of elimination of negative scenarios & truthfully, i didn't bother me at first. I didn't mind the fact that I wasn't owed anything outside the fact that I owed something to myself. I smoked a lot of cigarettes thinking of a better way of life & yearned to find the return of investment when it comes to harnessing positive energy through hard work. My whole plan of starting over daily after days of failure happened consistently was something I got used to in the process due to a lack of vision. I knew I had something that I should aim for, but the clutter & mental debris was the only thing that I knew firsthand. I found that blaming others is futile just like beating the air aimlessly. I learned how to gather & re-gather momentum regardless of what people said you could or couldn't do, & applied it to my daily challenges & I started overcoming certain things that I thought wasn't in my area of expertise. I started to win big by overcoming little battles. Bit by bit. & as i knocked out goals, my energy anatomy allowed me to grow in small doses. The mechanics of living a life based in spirituality & bible principles have helped me in the long due, once I started making sense of what it meant to live in 21st Century time of digital media & new age technologies that help align people not only to others but also the powers outside ourselves. Yet, despite accumulated progress in daily functions as well as dysfunctions, it all didn't feel like as if I have achieved & attained anything great at all. It was just a part of the process to inherit your life's work yet I don't think it was meant to sustain a level of personal satisfaction that can last. It was something to be proud of for a time. Its not meant to be forever.

So, I want to bring this back to you. What does 'home' really mean for you? Practical & radical mindsets are heavy yet once you've reached a goal & have attained personal success, how do you feel this tying up to your deeper yearnings & your heart's content? The business of doing doesn't necessarily mean you can eat ice cream without conviction & that it's all that this life is going to only count for.

Just as well. Excited for the coming 2020 New Year. What are you going to do differently?

I'll leave this last post of the year 2019 with a quote from author Neil T. Anderson. Which is this:

'What you do doesn't define who you are but rather what you do is defined by who you are.'

May the Lord bless us & keep us for the year ahead & praying for many more years to come!