What do i want to talk about? ??

I always have so much i want to say, i'm just not sure wether people want to hear it. Ill try to talk to you (who ever you are) in a manner and with context that i would have appreciated as my younger self.

This year has been incredibly interesting and i'm going to be as honest as i can!

I entered 2023 with pessimism, a very natural state of mind for me. I had a rough 2022 and i just though why should this year be any different, with this realisation of mind i began to research my well being.

How could i possibly help anyone or improve my business when i, myself or who/what ever is "behind my eyes" isn't functioning "well"

How do i become a "well being" ????

I have been studying Yoga, meditation and spirituality for around 4 years. These words evoke certain connotations to certain people, i was certainly one of these people. ?? i think in all honesty that i was open to anything other than the prescribed bullshit that our parents and grandparents and so on passed to us like a dull uninspiring flame.

Im going to overly simplify the science on this subject but.. here we go

Your body wants to live, it and evolution has your health as its main interest. Survival.... when we reproduce we pass on DNA, the DNA we pass on helps the survival of our offspring in their current environment. This is why humans stand up and our ancestors (APES) do not. As a bi product of survival though, anxiety is formed. A predictor for future threats to ones survival.

The self or the mind doesn't have your survival as its main interest. It will tell you and if you let it, CONVINCE you if its contents. When you go though a panic attack, it might feel like the thing you are worrying about is actually happening in this moment, maybe you're sitting in front of the tv or maybe on a train? And suddenly you feel like you are going to die (this actually happened to me) The interesting thing about this is that studies on visualisation show theres a very little difference between physically or mentally experiencing an event. This is why visualisation is very common in sportspeople

However absurd they sound when they are said out loud. Thoughts often sound silly and irrational. It is very odd this when you get to watch your thoughts arrive as part of consciousness.

Heres a scenario,

Im extremely busy and i have meetings back to back all day, half way through the day i get a cramp in my stomach. From which my mind tells me Im hungry and i best eat.

I have some choices, all of which have consequences. i have no time at all to get anything to eat on the way so..

Do i, tell everyone to push their day back because i forgot to plan ahead or do i push through, knowing that its just a thought (a recommendation if you prefer) and the feeling will pass.

You might be thinking, what is this person rambling on about?

Again i'm over simplifying the process and the theory but i decided that each thought should be treated in the same way as my scenario above, thoughts can wait and when they do they lose their urgency. I have suffered with depression an suicidal thoughts, but they are just exactly that. Thoughts. i do not want to die, my body definitely does NOT want to die (it has spent milions of years adapting itself not to). Thoughts do not define me anymore than my current hair style. So why should i trust these thoughts that provide me with fear and ego.

Enter 2023,

i ran my first ever marathon in 3:15, i broke into London, I earned over 50k after only issuing around 130 invoices, i started an agency called IDLE Creative and i'm opening a 2200sqf studio in January.

What is the difference between 2022 & 2023?

Mindset ??

Controversial topic, though from my experience is at the core of it all.

I would like you to understand that i "feel" all the relevant emotions that surround particularly difficult situation in life like, opening an agency or a photographic studio. But after i rationalise with them, tell them i have 10 years of experience or that im not scared of making mistakes because mistakes are very important for growth or just the simple truth that i am happy to have tried and failed than to never have tried at all and i feel fully alive in the very experience of doing something difficult.

Try more, Fail more, Live more

James ????