The Week Leading Up To My Amazon Internship

In seven days I'll be starting my internship at AWS as a Program Manager, it is hard to describe the feelings going through my mind now, I'm happy, nervous, excited, and worried, all at the same time. The journey has been long, and to think that all the hard work over the past three years is about to pay off gives me a sense of relief, it still doesn't feel real, it still feels like it is all a dream.

It is getting closer and closer, now I only have five days until I walk into the office for the first time. I have met my manager through the phone and been given instructions on my first steps on Monday, the tension is building up and I'm getting more and more nervous as the clock ticks closer to my start date. 

With four days left I started packing my bags, I leave for New York tomorrow, my head feels like it is going to explode as the pressure builds up. With my bags locked and loaded it finally hits me, my life is about to change. Heading to the airport I start to think about the impacts that this will have on my life and how it will be the start of something much greater, all the sudden my headache goes away, I become less nervous, and I realize this is a once in a lifetime moment. As I sat on the overbooked flight, all the pressure went away and for the next two and a half hours that I was thirty thousand feet above the ground, I could only think about how lucky I'm.

I got to New York and with three free days I decided to explore the city and get familiar with my neighborhood, but just when I got rid of one problem another came right in, the sense of loneliness came tumbling on top of me in the middle of the steel jungle, I felt alone, far from family and friends but deep down I knew that this feeling was temporary. 

Saturday arrives and I was invited for an event in Brooklyn, I only knew one person that was attending so I texted her and hoped on my uber. Throughout the next nine hours, I danced with strangers, made random friendships, but most important of all, for the first time, in the city that never sleeps, I felt part of something. 

We finally get to the current day, it's Sunday night, in less than 10 hours I'll put on my button down with my fanciest shoe and head three blocks west of my apartment where I'll begin the most important journey of my life. This week made me realize more than I anticipated, I have traveled through every feeling known to man, from feeling stressed and paranoid to feeling loved and important. I believe that it is important to document moments like this, moments that will change my life; I can't say that I'm not nervous about tomorrow, but after all that happened this week, I feel ready and confident.