Wanted: Solicitor/Barrister specialising in freedom of speech and human rights

A proposed Gloucester County Court hearing (05/11/2024) that has an interim civil injunction order with powers of arrest against me to prevent matters of public interest:

I am unable to defend myself as for several years my mental health has been poor, suffering from PTSD, anxiety and depression. I have absent-mindedness, poor memory, much difficulty with the ability to mentally collate, process and/or manage lots of information at once.

I have difficulty to ‘bullet-point’ when communicating and answering 'on-the-spot' questions where there is an obvious need to quickly bring to mind important details in such a way that would allow a reasonable understanding without confusion and misunderstanding of the court.

My wife died a traumatic death on 02/12/2023 and this has since triggered a much-worsened decline in my 'recent recall' memory and memories of childhood care-home abuse and other (what previously were) antiquated traumas.

This has resulted in 'brain fog', and I have a greatly increased lack of concentration, sometimes panic attacks and 'flashbacks' relating to several years of unfounded false allegation attacks of ‘intimidating aggressive behaviour’ from the NHS legal department and staff who I have made substantiated complaints about over covert DNAR’s and ReSPECT forms.

At times I am unable to control emotional tearful breakdowns when faced with stressful situations and confrontation.

These issues would not allow for a legible and fair defence, especially against legally qualified persons in a court of law if I am prevented from being represented by a lawyer specialising in defence for what I am accused of.

Below (in “Complexity”) I will explain the reasons that lead to the claimant’s proposal for the injunction order.

Area of Law;

Statutory provision part 1 of the ASB, crime and policing Act 2014. With powers of arrest and claim for costs.

Police are withholding and refusing to provide receipts for seized items which contain recorded evidence against NHS staff and NHS covert unlawful behaviour - collected by myself over a number of years.

I have been met with several blunt refusals from police to investigate my allegations of Gross Negligence Manslaughter (a criminal offence) and also for them to investigate my complaint of police officer conduct in respect of impartiality and also investigation process.

Complexity;

My case is indeed complex, surrounds and involves more than eight years of important aspects that are extremely relevant to my defence against an injunction order proposal by Gloucestershire Constabulary (AKA Gloucestershire NHS). It seems strange that this has ironically been taken on by police as opposed to either GHNFT ward staff 'witnesses' themselves or the Gloucestershire NHS legal department.

I apologise for what you may deem as ‘excessive or repetitive content’.

This case arises from an eight-year dispute with Gloucestershire hospitals over gaslighted concerns and complaints through correct channels, evidenced recordings of poor care & treatment, neglect, covert DNACPR’s, Deprivation of Liberty and ReSPECT authorisations and frequent hospital unsafe and failed discharges of my wife Lucy throughout no less than thirty-five times extremely life-threatening urosepsis infections.

For twenty years I had been full-time carer for my wife (Nicola Lucy Meszaros - 10/10/1969) since she was diagnosed with MS in 2004.?

I had worked up to 60 hours a week as a care and support coordinator in the voluntary sector, supporting disadvantaged families but had to then take more time to care for my wife as she became worse with what is described below.

Since July 2017 during my spare time, I had provided support advice and advocacy, often face to face, to other families from all over UK who had been failed in the Health & Care system including that of local authority, community services and the NHS.

I did this for free at my own cost, also using social media outlets as a platform for matters of public interest (I also have freelance journalist press accreditation) with an ever-increasing 24,900 supportive following, including mainstream media and care professionals from within the varying umbrella of health and care sectors.

I receive stories almost daily from people who feel they have nowhere else to turn.

Various local authorities including Gloucestershire (and Gloucestershire NHS) have repeatedly for years, attempted to prevent me from publishing social media content that raises awareness of lack of duty of care and failures.

My wife Lucy had MS diagnosed in 2004 at the age of 35, after a horrendous two years of trying to get our GP to take it seriously and arrange tests for her symptoms. We were consistently told for those two years that “it could be MS, or even a brain tumour.” What actually confirmed the diagnosis was a private MRI scan, having to be paid for by ourselves.

For the first five years MS affected Lucy in the way of muscular spasm-like tremors, tiredness and mood swings until 2009. She then became quite stable apart from painful urination, constipation with massively distended stomach, pain and a 'sporadic' faecal discharge from her vaginal area.? Since 2013 these medical conditions (1 to 4 below) grew worse.

Lucy's lengthy medical history clearly evidenced that she was majorly asymptomatic and often presented with non-concerning ‘clinical signs’ such as indicating temperature or blood pressure.

GP's acknowledged and agreed that my wife was asymptomatic but it was disregarded by other clinicians such as district nurses and professionals in Gloucester and Cheltenham hospitals – who repeatedly continued to attribute the urosepsis symptoms to Lucy having MS.

Each documentation of this incorrect ‘diagnosis' contributed to the opinions of other doctors who did not relish contradicting prior and senior colleagues. (The more this seed was spread, the more reluctance of other clinicians to acknowledge it).

When Lucy became ill blood tests were first-line action but usually returned as non-concerning until she suffered infection-induced seizures (she was not epileptic). Urine cultures were a 100% definitive test.

Whenever the minority of several hospital doctors agreed that faecal discharge and kidney stones were urosepsis causal factors - they considered that surgical intervention was not in Lucy's 'Best Interest' - purely based on the fact that [quote] "she wouldn't tolerate it because has MS".

Yet she had in fact evidenced herself to be strong enough to recover from and survive at least thirty-five bouts of urosepsis,

My wife suffered numerous strokes, several heart attacks and even a cardiac arrest (many of these actually occurring whilst a hospital inpatient, and often within hours of doctors disregarding the sepsis warning signs and my substantiated concerns.

Each and every one of these incidents were confirmed to be induced by untreated and/or unresolved infections.

Several strokes (at least five), and two heart attacks happened whilst in hospital care, sometimes within as little as 30 minutes of hospital doctors, GP's, district nurses and Rapid Response disregarding my fears that Lucy was seriously ill.

Eight years of my wife’s documented medical clearly history evidenced that on almost every occasion doctors had incorrectly diagnosed and been proven to have made incorrect decisions and delayed treatment.

(1)- unresolved stomach ulcers - Eleven years of painful suffering until resulting in her death from intestinal bleeding and faecal smelling vomiting for an hour and twenty minutes. I have the bedding frozen in a sterile sealed bag in case we can send it to laboratory for analysation.

(2) -- unresolved kidney stones - Eleven years of painful suffering until they became so large, blocking her urethra. September 2023 a consultant then performed an operation as he considered the kidney stones to be the cause of the repeated urosepsis. This particular Consultant was an absolute gentleman, polite and attentive, albeit cautious to contradict colleagues’ previous refusals to resolve faecal impaction and vaginal faecal leakage. He agreed that these coincided with urosepsis each and every time she suffered with it.

(3) - unresolved severe constipation and faecal impaction - Eleven years of painful suffering with extremely agonising bowel movements, sometimes projectile vomiting with faecal smelling fluid and blood when her stomach had become massively distended. Two GP's witnessed this strange vomiting in our own home. (I still have the cctv footage with doctors here but police will not release it).

(4) - unresolved some type of fistula which caused and/or allowed vaginal faecal leakage - Eleven years of painful suffering and repeated severely life-threatening infections of urosepsis.

A few minor investigations were made but as the faecal leakage was sporadic it was left untreated.

I have many videos to evidence this faecal discharge, and although it may seem inappropriate to video, this was to show doctors in the hope they take this seriously and resolve it.

Each of our domiciliary care-workers (including a PA carer who is a fully trained A&E nurse) district community nurse, hospital doctors, nurses and HCA's - have witnessed this faecal leakage from Lucy's vaginal area. On each occasion of it happening in hospital I had requested that the witnessing medical professionals document it. Some said they would, others reacted as if an indecent suggestion was made.

Bowel irrigation was recommended by a Colorectal surgeon (Mr Glancy) to be carried out by community nursing, but their provision was extremely inconsistent. My wife would often be left faecally impacted, in pain and bleeding from her bottom.

District nurses also used the same (black with mould) irrigation bag and tubing for up to eight months, until a new colleague reported them. From that moment the district nursing team refused to continue with bowel irrigation for my wife falsely claiming that “Lucy can no longer mentally or physically tolerate it”.

This led to my complaining about the poor care but my concerns were basically gaslighted and met with allegations of 'me' failing to accept medical advice and concerns about my own behaviour. I began to record conversations and installed CCTV to evidence that my 'behaviour' was perfectly acceptable and appropriate.

?My complaints led to nowhere, often not even a response.

Safeguarding regulatory bodies took more notice of false allegations against me than my substantiated concerns. CQC repeatedly stated that they “do not investigate individual concerns”.

District nurses continued to falsely accuse me of "not listening to medical advice” and of being “intimidating and aggressive". They had become dissent and oppositional. All I had done was to raise concerns. I have several years of audio recordings including cctv evidencing that my behaviour was to the contrary.

Subsequently, suppositories were prescribed by the Continence Team, district nurses allocated to administer them but often refused - saying "she doesn't 'look like' she needs it", and leaving Lucy still faecally impacted with a massively distended stomach and crying out in excruciating pain because she hadn't opened her bowels for at least a week.

Faecal impaction is a life-threatening condition, and coupled with faecal discharge and eight years of kidney stones can be fatal, as evidenced in my wife’s death. (Most of these nurses refusing bowel care were the specific individuals we had complained about for using the mouldy bowel irrigation equipment).

My wife would the suffer with infection-induced seizures, strokes and heart attacks because her bowel care was neglected and the faecal discharge became worse, actually causing urosepsis.

This would sometimes go on for up to three months and it was typical that Lucy was not treated with IV antibiotics until this happened.

So, IV antibiotics initially reduced symptoms, but faeces would still be sporadically discharging from Lucy's vaginal area and fighting against the antibiotics - not clearing infection, but in fact allowing the infection to escalate.

Hospital ward staff would not acknowledge that this faecal discharge occurred more if Lucy's bowel care was neglected so much that impaction became worse. They were reluctant to either monitor or provide suppositories and enemas although this was usually an A&E triage-documented-for-PRN medical requirement.

Typically, after a few days of IV antibiotics, and regardless of clearly deteriorating Lucy would be considered fit for discharge and based on "She's had a few days of IV, she must be clear of infection". They would not acknowledge the logic that antibiotics would be battling the continuing faecal discharge that was causing infection and discharge her unsafely time after time - never learning from mistakes.

The IV antibiotics were constantly fighting a battle with the faecal leakage causing further infection, not allowing it to eradicate it.

She would regularly become a medical emergency within hours or days of hospital discharge and require the same emergency lifesaving treatment all over again.

Eventually I resorted to recording conversations, repeated incidents of neglect (12 hours soiled and wet pads/pressure ulcers/unsafe discharges) and writing articles not just for public interest and safety of others, also but to try and get acknowledgement and support from 'somebody' of what was continuing to happen in this ongoing situation.

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Sepsis UK state:

A definitive test by far, to diagnose urosepsis in asymptomatic people is urine cultures. Blood test results can frequently be returned as not concerning, and no matter how many years that blood test method has proven to be unreliable in Lucy's particular case - many medical professionals would not acknowledge it and accused me of not accepting medical decisions, being 'intimidating and aggressive'. My wife’s urine infections escalated to urosepsis on no less than 35 occasions.

After several years of my concerns being consistently gaslighted and met with increased false allegations of my behaviour, I decided to audio record conversations and record images of my wife’s neglect (paramount to abuse) for her, and for my own self-protection and to use in public interest.? I am absolutely shocked to discover how many people in UK are subjected to this retaliation and have met in excess of 35 other victims of NHS false allegations, when all we have done is to question medical decisions and raise justified concerns of poor care and treatment.

I was NEVER 'aggressive, I NEVER raised my voice or 'demanded'. I simply voiced my opinion that clinicians should acknowledge in particular Lucy's evidenced medical history, and how often they had made the wrong decisions, which typically were proven to have put my wife’s life at severe risk. Lucy's symptoms were in line with sepsis guidelines and urine cultures have NEVER failed to spot urosepsis, whereas blood tests usually have failed.

generally feeling unwell

lethargic

decline in awareness

Slurred and difficult to understand speech

extremely weak

delirious

confused

not taking fluids

refusing food

low blood pressure

sporadically fluctuating high to low temperature

painful urination

foul smelling and cloudy urine

decrease in urine output

blood in urine

mottled skin rash

difficult to rouse, sometimes unresponsive

distended stomach

vaginal faecal discharge

faecal smelling vomiting with blood

I reiterate what I said above, It was typical for doctors NOT to escalate and treat Lucy with IV antibiotics until such time as infections frequently became severely life threatening - inducing seizures, leading to strokes, heart attacks and even a cardiac arrest.

My wife may have been lawfully deemed not to have mental capacity in important decision-making and her own care, but physically she was much stronger than doctors gave her credit for, and she recovered well from these life-threatening events, albeit her cognitive impairment declined a little more each time until she lost mental capacity. But specifically at such times as being her worst when suffering with urosepsis, hospital clinicians made covert DNACPR decisions, categorically failing to have a lawfully required discussion with myself, as not only husband, but also Lasting Power of Attorney for Health & Welfare.

In spite of this my wife continued to recover and enjoy a reasonable quality of life. She was not frail when she didn't have urosepsis infection. She certainly was not bed-bound, was extremely happy, incredibly social and outgoing, feed herself, converse, laugh, joke, engross herself in her favourite movies singing along to them. and could still make general decisions if she was given choices. She did not have a 'poor' quality of life.

Hospital clinicians’ judgmental assumptions were based on personal opinion, unreasonably and specifically, when Lucy was at her worst DURING sepsis infections, totally disregarding her ‘baseline’; "Hmm, I see that she has MS, she 'must' have a poor quality of life. I don't think it would be in her Best Interest to medically investigate".

For over 10 years Gloucestershire NHS have consistently refused and ghosted my requests for access to my wife's medical records, even alleging that we are not married. But even 'IF', that would had have been the case - my LPA was still lawful.

Hospital legal department have told Integrated Care Board to instruct our GP surgery to refuse access to medical records (I also have recordings of the refusals). My access to my own medical records is also refused. October 2023 I was even excluded from ordering my wife’s regular prescription medications, and Dr’s refused to communicate with myself or our son regarding my wife becoming seriously ill leading up to her death.

I do NOT wish to tarnish or stigmatise clinicians, because I do and have often acknowledged the many decent and caring staff (this is evidenced in many of my recordings and social media posts).

But these have been typical experiences of almost each of my wife's many hospital admissions when I have either complained of poor care or objected against discharge on the basis of my wife not recovered, but actually deteriorated. My evidence that police are withholding, and many social media posts will show consistent commendations to hospital and other care staff.

There have been more occasions than I can count when it is evidenced that my wife was discharged extremely and seriously unwell, still with urosepsis, resulting in paramedics, Rapid Response and GP intervention for life-saving treatment, sometimes within hours of hospital clinicians discharging her as “medically fit”.

Lucy has had some of the worst possible discharges, including a heart attack in Gloucester's discharge ward whilst waiting for patient transport to bring her home - confirmed to still have urosepsis. Although the ward clerk/manager was talking to me at that precise moment in time, a DNACPR was authorised and concealed from me.

She has even been discharged from GRH and actually arrived home totally unconscious (a district nurse was here at the time and called 999, quoting 'heart attack'). The patient transport drivers, who had been concerned about Lucy being unresponsive were told "This is how she is". They even telephoned the ward to ask if they can take her back, but there was refusal. Lucy was later that day confirmed to still have urosepsis, and many, many other failed discharges when she's been confirmed to still have urosepsis, too.

My H/W LPA has been consistently disregarded, refuted and blatantly ignored by Gloucestershire NHS on many occasions for many years.

Office of The Public Guardian have personally spoken to senior ward staff from my phone, confirming my LPA, and yet staff have STILL blatantly disregarded it. I have consistently been told by staff that they have been “instructed by the hospitals legal team”.

On at least three separate occasions DNACPR decisions have been made and authorised without discussion or consultation, completely behind my back. On one occasion there had been a formal discussion and Consultant-made decision but that was rapidly revoked by my wife’s MS Consultant. On one occasion in September there was an informal discussion of “possibly up for review if she becomes worse and should it become necessary” but no decision made.

Doctors and consultants are required to make 'all reasonable attempts to discuss when making DNACPR decisions', and even more so as I was Lucy's lawful H/W power of attorney. This is directly in line with the General Medical Council’s good medical practice and Mental Capacity Law.

As Lucy's carer I would continue to provide the same care for her in hospital as I did at home, including personal care, to avoid instances where she would often be left lying in wet and soiled continence pads. This has been welcomed on many occasions by staff.

There was not a single hospital admission over a period of not less than 8 years that I did NOT have cause to raise legitimate concerns of poor care. Lucy was often left overnight in wee and poo for up to 12 hours, sometimes resulting in hospital acquired pressure ulcers.

Initially staff seemed to listen, but incidents hardly ever improved, so I would raise the same concerns time and time again.

This invariably led to hostile behaviour from some, usually senior staff, with more false allegations about my 'behaviour'.

When I have escalated to making formal complaints to senior ward staff my concerns were frequently ghosted, and I was usually met with retaliation and subjected to false accusations of being "intimidating and aggressive".

I had to audio record every time I entered until I left the hospital to evidence my placid behaviour and protect myself from false allegations. This did cause even worse conflict because staff knew I was recording, which would have made them feel uneasy, but what else could I do? [As stated by Judge Watson in 2020 Court of Protection case when NHS had previously made an unsuccessful attempt to have my LPA revoked. NHS false allegations and harassment against me became worse ever since then].

During May 2023 emergency admission for yet another withheld treatment for urosepsis, I had told a senior and a junior doctor that Lucy is deteriorating. She was also having left sided weakness, drooped face along with all of the other symptoms returning. One of the doctors retorted; "She's had IV antibiotics; she looks alright to me".

I explained to him that Lucy still had faecal discharge from her vagina, and because that causes infection, I think it's preventing the antibiotics from having full effect. I reiterated that staff were refusing to do Lucy's bowel care, and if it isn't taken care of, faeces will continue to seep from her vagina. I said, 'can't you understand that this is extremely high infection risk?'.

Within approximately an hour Lucy had a tia (stroke) - It was just another case of usual judgemental and arrogant disregard that many doctors have shown toward us, because THEY are the professionals, and I am merely the person that knows Lucy best.

Nothing changed, and Lucy was still frequently left in soiled pads, faeces entering the hospital acquired (still grade 4) pressure ulcer. I was snapped at by some staff, and actually shouted at by the charge nurse because I requested more frequent pad checks for Lucy because each day I arrived she was lying in her own mess.

On 15th July a consultant said that a scan showed huge kidney stones blocking the urethra, so they will do a Nephrostomy to try and drain her bladder and hopefully some of the stones would drain too. These kidney stones had been an issue for many, many years and I was thankful that at last, something was going to be done about it.

The following day (16th July) Lucy was transferred From Gloucester Royal hospital to Cheltenham General Tivolli ward where the procedure would be carried out.

The most recent DNACPR discussion was with the urology consultant on 17th July 2023 - in which he stated, "If I operate (kidney stones) I think I might be inclined to recommend that she's not for CPR because she's so frail, but we'll talk more if it comes to that". At that point I evidenced my wife’s baseline and reasonable quality of life with recent videos. He accepted that she did in fact have a ‘QOL’ (I have recordings of this conversation).

Within a few days yet another covert DNACPR decision was made. When I discovered this (I overheard a conversation) and approached the Registrar she told me it had been authorised by hospital legal department. My wife’s consultant has sympathetically confirmed that he was also not approached about this or been made aware of it.

Poor hospital 'care' continued during this admission; ie; two days on a flat air mattress, inconsistent size of dressings often so small that the sticky border stuck to the open wounds on the GRH acquired pressure ulcer, left in soiled and wet pads, faeces and urine entering the dressings, clean and dry pads but faeces not removed and stuck to Lucy's skin, not encouraged or assisted with meals or fluids, unkempt, not assisting with teeth brushing, turned and maneuverered without warning, and very roughly handled by a specific HCA.

Two staff in particular had tears in their eyes on at least two occasions, telling me they are "sorry, but can't say anything because they'll get into trouble if they do". This has been quite a regular occurrence, and I felt sorry for them, but at the same time had thoughts of 'How can you stand by and say nothing? What if this was happening to your own relation?'

Lucy's pressure ulcer worsened, again inconsistent with dressings and left for hours, including overnight in wet and soiled pads (I would mark pads with time and date). So, more complaints, more 'ghosting' and more hostility from particular staff who were involved in my wife's poor care, and no matter how humble, polite and apologetic for raising concerns I had yet another label as an "intimidating and aggressive" relative.

Again, I reiterate, this is precisely why I felt it necessary to record each minute whilst I am visiting Lucy. Not even once, never, not even in worst scenario, have I EVER raised my voice or been impolite.

The most recent covert DNACPR decision was July 2023. I had overheard a staff conversation. I approached and told the Registrar that I believe this to be the fourth covertly behind my back and that I would do anything I possibly could to take legal action. I told her that doctors had more than ample opportunities to have conversations with me about it because I was at my wife's bedside at least six hours a day, very often more than that.

From that moment, the attitude from ward staff became unbearably unpleasant and actually quite hostile and harassing. Even Lucy's agency carer that used to take over from me in the hospital felt so excluded and frowned upon that she was regularly almost in tears.

A Nephrostomy was planned for the following day, my still showing symptoms of having urine infection, clearly deteriorating, and having seizure-like movements. With unresolved infection was a serious potential risk to her during the operation, so I requested that a urine sample be taken and sent for culture for precautionary measure.

The consultant said "We don't need one. We have one from six months ago". I replied "Then can she have her urine dipped, because she clearly IS deteriorating. and with respect I think it's ridiculous if you're relying on a six-month old result to determine which antibiotics are sensitive to what Lucy has now”.

The consultant snapped back at me "Do you want this operation or not". I then spoke to our own GP, who agreed with me, and provided a form so that I could collect a sample of urine and take to the lab myself. This clearly angered some staff, dismissive and rude behaviour increased.

I then discovered that there were three separate DOLS (deprivation of liberty). Two written in the same day by one ward sister, also incorrectly documenting "ex-husband" and falsely alleging that I had refused bedrails (I had in fact requested the use of bedrails, as I usually do).

The 3rd DOLs was written the following day by a different ward sister. There was also a covertly written ReSPECT form (and the covert DNACPR).

I requested copies of the DOLS, ReSPECT and DNACPR on at least four occasions but was given feeble excuses, for example, "sorry, we don't know how to use the printer", "relatives don't have copies and are not allowed to have copies". Even the Registrar said that I cannot have or see the (covert) DNACPR. Hospitals have a legal obligation to provide these documents.

Not one of these documents adhered to Mental Capacity Law, there were no correct formal assessment procedures and no involvement with me which was lawfully required as Lucy's LPA.

Our carer and I were changing Lucy's continence pad and I had asked a nurse if she would come and check if faeces are from Lucy's vagina, but at that point it didn't appear to be. The nurse gave me a disgusting look, as if I had made an improper suggestion.

I then told her that another nurse had given me a red pot for urine sample and that our GP had printed off a form for the lab, because I don't think the antibiotic Tazocin is effective, not hitting the spot and ineffective because there was still sporadic discharge from Lucy's vagina. I received another dirty look.

On the morning of 26th July, a GP telephoned me to say that the urine sample that I had taken from Lucy and given to microbiology showed a 'high level of infection". I was stood next to Senior ward staff (my phone on speaker) who were listening to the conversation, but they disregarded it,

The Registrar said, "How do we know if that urine even belongs to Lucy", ironically insinuating that it was my urine.

Lucy was discharged unsafely the same day, late in the afternoon on 26th July (unsafely yet again) still with urosepsis. She had another infection induced seizure some hours later, and also early the following morning. She still had confirmed urosepsis.

Almost every hospital discharge was unsafe, simply because many staff would not acknowledge that somebody being asymptomatic may not show the 'clinical' indications that they normally expect.

Lucy often having to be rushed back in on blue lights with unresolved infection. And then we have the continuing false and fabricated allegation to discredit me in an attempt to silence my fully justified concerns just because I complain that Lucy's been left yet again until her life is at risk.

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Police arrest on 4th August at 22.30pm: To this day no charges have been filed – (in fact, on 9th August 2024 I was informed that “No further action” will be taken and the “case is now concluded”).

Searched my home and seized items - flatly refusing to provide receipts for all of the seized items.

'Somebody' (apparently unknown individual) from Tivolli ward, Cheltenham General hospital had suddenly, and out of the blue decided to fabricate an unsubstantiated and what I can only describe as a totally unsubstantiated and 'half-cocked' allegation of (quote):

"We 'THINK' he 'MAY' have inserted a finger into either her bottom or vagina on 17th July whilst doing her personal care". (unquote).

(1) - If Tivolli ward or any other staff for that matter, had even a slightest suspicion that something like that was happening, they would NOT have allowed me to continue providing personal care for Lucy, in THEIR hospital ward for ten days (the remainder of the admission) until 26th July, if this fabricated "we Think" "he May have" 'allegation' was believed to be true.

(2) - Tivolli ward would NOT on 26th July, have discharged Lucy, my vulnerable wife into my care, in our home, and leave her in my care, if they genuinely believed what was alleged.

(3) - Somebody WOULD have 'reported' this fabricated concern immediately - Safeguarding and police would not have waited until NINETEEN days later to remove me from providing care for my wife.

(4) - Our formal carer from the care agency was present prior to the alleged time of the alleged incident. She was in Lucy's side room from morning until mid-evening on that and other days. Her statement to police totally refutes what has been fabricated by somebody from Gloucestershire NHS 'Trust'.

Duty solicitor informed the interviewing detective that the uncertainty, the wording and the delay in reporting of this ‘allegation’ did meet even the most basic threshold to warrant police investigation. I also informed the detective that should I be prevented from providing what is extremely complex care to my wife that she would die, as unfamiliar people would not recognise if and when she had life-threatening infection.

Lucy still had a serious urosepsis infection but was readmitted on 6th September for a kidney stone removal operation, and I was to stay with her so that I could sign the consent form. Nothing had arrived during the afternoon, so I popped home to feed my dogs. (I as usual, to protect myself, recorded the whole time I was on the ward).

When I returned a couple of hours later, I was met by Head of Security, who issued me with a "Behavioural warning" letter stating that I could now only visit during visiting hours. (Another fabricated allegation from the ward sister that I had displayed "intimidating and aggressive behaviour). I asked him to listen to my recordings to evidence this was untrue, but he declined, obviously he had to follow his orders.

I read the letter and then continued to the ward, where I waited to sign the consent form, but it still hadn't materialised in the evening. So I asked the ward sister if I can come back the following morning prior to 09.00, as Lucy's operation was planned for then. She agreed that would be fine. (I have this on recording).

I returned the following morning (7th Sept) at 08.50 to sign the consent form. I rang the bell and (I believe to be) the ward sister let me in.

Immediately she told me I had to leave as "You know you're not allowed in outside of visiting hours. You'll have to wait outside". I said 'Ok, Karen, but I need to sign the consent form' (as she had agreed). I left the ward. (again, all is recorded).

I waited outside, went down to theatre with Lucy and the theatre staff and signed the form.

A few hours later I returned to visit Lucy, only to be met by the same Head of Security saying I could not go in, and he handed me another letter. The letter was banning me from all of Gloucestershire NHS sites for 12 months.

I asked why, and he said the ward sister had yet again said I had been 'intimidating, aggressive and shown condescending behaviour'. He also said that I had "called the sister a Karen".

I laughed and said 'But her name IS Karen'. He reeled back in disbelief.

I reminded him that I have recordings to refute the repeated (including this) allegations and asked him to listen so he could hear for himself how my 'behaviour' is polite, sheepish and completely acceptable.

He declined and told me 'it doesn't matter, you are still banned and would have to take it up with the legal department'.

My son came to the hospital so that at least someone could be with Lucy. She had three sepsis induced seizures that evening.

The first seizure my son asked a group of three staff for help, and would they fetch the (prn'd) Midazolam rescue medication. They completely ignored him, looked at him and laughed.

He asked three times if they would please help his mother and was still ignored so he pressed the bed alarm button. An HCA came right up into his face, totally ignoring his mother and began to shout at him.

It took more than fifteen minutes for somebody to acknowledge and fetch the rescue medication Buccolam.

Although there were another three seizures that evening, only after the 3rd one would staff bleep a doctor.

Lucy was critical but she did survive.

(Her discharge summary documents a further two seizures but my son or myself were not informed of these).

My wife was unsafely discharged again (2nd time in less than two months) on 12th September, arriving home with a much-worsened pressure ulcer and almost unresponsive. She still had confirmed urosepsis.

Due to my absence district nurses continued to 'dress' the pressure ulcer, but yet again were not just using tiny dressings, adhesive border sticking to the open wound again and making it worse, but also very inconsistent with visits, often refusing to visit when their dressings fell off, saying 'she doesn't need them'.

Our carer of four years complained about them. Within a few hours the care agency were told to withdraw from the care package.

We then had to find new care workers but those care workers actually used on multiple occasions, the exact same gloves they wore for changing soiled pads to 'pop' tablet medication into her mouth, stir Lucy's food with their gloved fingers, feed her and handle her drinks beaker.

Lucy subsequently died on 2nd December.

Looking back on the CCTV, it took an hour and twenty minutes of choking on her own faecal smelling vomit and trying to call for me to help.

Due to the fabricated allegation on 4th August, and restrictive bail conditions I was prevented from making any clinician or doctor aware of how ill my wife was.

Her death could have been avoided if I had not been prevented from providing care for her, as I am able to easily recognise her infection symptoms.

But due to the hospitals fabricated and complete untruth from Gloucestershire hospitals NHS, and having to be ‘cared’ for by unhygienic care staff not changing soiled gloves, my wife was left to suffer.

(Gloucestershire Constabulary have gaslighted my allegations that my wife died as a result of Gross Negligence Manslaughter.

(This IS a criminal offence and police have a lawful duty to investigate).

We then had Gloucester coroner refusing to raise concerns about Lucy's death resulting from poor treatment and care from Gloucestershire NHS, GP's, district nurses and the new care workers.

I had to push for a post-mortem, which was eventually agreed. I had evidenced to the coroner about the NHS conflict, and asked for an 'Out of County' post mortem. The coroner had a duty to agree to it due to the evidenced poor care and treatment. They refused and won’t say why.

They did categorically assure me that the pathologist would do a "full, thorough, complete and invasive post-mortem, take samples of vomit, urine, faeces, blood, and organ tissues". But this was not done, and they are refusing to discuss this with me or to give an explanation.

I subsequently discovered that they used a pathologist who is 'Lead pathologist' for a company that supplies agency staff to NHS. (possible conflict of interest or bias).

I do believe that this is the reason for the lack of autopsy investigations and the refusal of 'Out of County' post-mortem.

Gloucester coroner office also refuse to say why Lucy's pre-existing conditions, clearly leading up to the actual and ultimate cause of her death, were not taken into consideration as contributing factors, and refusing to consider related factors that have been problematic for Lucy for at LEAST eight years, untreated and blatantly disregarded by Gloucestershire Royal and Cheltenham General Hospitals.

A coroner has a legal duty to raise a 'Future deaths prevention report' in case like this. The coroner refused.

The Registrar for deaths said she is 'not happy to sign the death certificate as natural causes' due to the coroner disregarding Lucy's poor treatment and care by NHS and GP's.

I then found a company that would conduct a completely independent post-mortem in Stoke Mandeville for ￡5000, but wanted half the amount as deposit before they would continue.

During the next eight weeks as I was trying to raise the money through a Go Fund Me and it wasn't until 3rd January that I raised enough for the 1st payment, but the pathologist didn't have availability until 10th January.

On 5th January I had another email from the proposed independent pathologist asking for pictures of Lucy so that the pathologist was able to determine how much after 35 days, she had decomposed and establish if a second? post-mortem would still be viable, and the likelihood of thorough examination of tissues and bodily fluids etc.

I sent more videos and pictures to the pathologist at his request, who sadly concluded that Lucy had deteriorated too much and therefore greatly lessening the chances of establishing the true cause of her death.

I then made arrangements for my wife's funeral.

I was unable to get a date until 22nd January 2024, fifty-two days, nearly 8 weeks after Lucy died.

I still do not have a death certificate because I categorically disagree (as did the deaths Registrar) with my wife’s particular causal factors of her death and the fact that they were consistently not addressed.

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14th March 2024 Police arrest: search my home for a second time - flatly refusing (for the 2nd time) to provide receipts for all of the seized items.

I had peacefully protested using a video live stream to social media on the roadside away from Cheltenham General hospital.

GHNFT telephoned police and I was arrested again, for apparently “potential voyeurism” because a GHNFT Board meeting happened to be taking place in a building adjacent to where I stood.

I was held for 24 hours, not charged with anything but released on ‘Pre-charge’ bail. Although the ‘conditions’ are not considered to be enforceable I have not breached any of the conditions. Police have confirmed this in their prepared court witness statement.

There have been at least two adjournments (on my request) because a solicitor that had agreed to take on the case – but not been communicative nor engaging in building my defence.

The hearing due in Gloucester County court on 5th November 2024 is set for twenty minutes – nowhere near enough time for a fair defence to be heard and certainly not an equal standing when I do not have legal representation.

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What my wife and I were subjected to over the years amounts to nothing less than bullying, hounding, upset and mental trauma thrown at us by professionals working in ‘caring and compassionate’ professional environments who have a legal duty to be transparent, honest and act with integrity.

But it has escalated to this latest attempt to silence me purely because I insisted on an adequate and acceptable level of care and treatment for a vulnerable lady with MS, whose cognitive impairment worsened each time her life was put at risk by not treating her for the fistula and kidney stones that caused 35 bouts of sepsis infections.

Kind regards,

Michael Meszaros