Udgham: The Beginning

Udgham: The Beginning

Life begins at a point—our udgham—where everything feels fresh, innocent, and pure. It’s the foundation of who we are, the essence of our existence. But as time passes, we tend to leave behind the moments that once defined us, running farther and farther away from them. Slowly, we stop living the way we always wanted to live. If we take a moment to scan through our journey from childhood to the present, how much of that essence still remains? How much do we still embrace the things we once loved? The truth is, many of those feelings, emotions, likes, and dislikes have been buried deep within us—tucked away in a metaphorical old well, hard to retrieve. And that’s why, no matter how much we achieve or experience, we often feel incomplete.

But then, one day, someone walks into your life, someone who shares the same udgham. This person unknowingly creates an environment that compels you to peel back the layers of yourself, layers you had buried long ago. And suddenly, you start to live again. Over the years, life has smoothed and eroded you, much like a relentless sandstorm weathering a rock. Eventually, you become unrecognizable, even to yourself. The pressure of education, competition, marriage, adapting to new relationships, and environments—all these changes force you to accelerate your adaptation. And if your partner isn’t there to support you in these transitions, the journey becomes twice as hard. You find yourself competing not just with the external world but also with the person who should be your anchor.

Responsibilities pile on, and with every addition, you lose a part of your originality. Before you even realize it, you’ve become someone else entirely. That’s when the quest begins—the quest to rediscover yourself. Who are you? What do you truly want? Was this the life you imagined for yourself? After traveling so far and chasing so many things, you begin to see the futility of it all. The habits, hobbies, likes, and dislikes that once defined you are now shadows of their former selves. You’ve been swept along by the current of life, much like a rock dislodged from the riverbed, carried endlessly by the river until it’s deposited in some ocean, some land, or some unknown place.

Yet, sometimes, life offers you a chance to reconnect. Someone may come into your life and remind you of your origin, your udgham. It’s like a storybook unfolding before you, bringing back memories you thought were lost forever. In those moments, you begin to reconnect with yourself. It’s as if a long-abandoned house suddenly has its lights turned on. At first, all you see is dust and cobwebs—the neglect of years gone by. But as you clean and uncover what lies beneath, you start to see the beauty of what once was. You remember the joy of running up those stairs, sitting on that balcony, or simply being yourself—your original self, unjudged and unburdened.

?The feeling of reconnection is profound. You start to relive your life, cherishing every moment, and you may even regret the years wasted on decisions that weren’t optimal. Yet, those decisions and the cruelty of time were lessons, paths to learning and growth. This process of rediscovery mirrors the ultimate connection with God. Our udgham, after all, is with the divine. That’s where we truly belong. But as we grow older, we forget or remain unaware of this origin. We believe our purpose is limited to living, earning, and surviving, yet we are never truly content.

Why do we keep running? Why is peace so elusive? Even among those with immense wealth and achievements, there’s a lack of contentment, an unending search for something they cannot name. And then, one day, perhaps through spiritual awakening or divine intervention, we meet God. In that connection, we rediscover our origin and find answers to the questions that have haunted us. The satisfaction and peace that follow are unparalleled.

?But this journey doesn’t have to wait until the end. If we reconnect with ourselves first, the path to God becomes clearer. Rediscovering our udgham, whether through a person who brings us back to ourselves or through spiritual connection, is what we all need. It is in this connection that we find true fulfillment, breaking free from the endless spiral of desires and artificial aspirations. Without it, we risk losing ourselves entirely, trapped in a black hole of forgetfulness, stripped of identity and memory.

?The key is simple: the sooner we connect with our udgham, the better. Whether it’s through another person who helps us find our way or through the divine, reconnecting with ourselves first is the foundation for everything. In this self-connection lies the doorway to peace, contentment, and, ultimately, God.

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