Trust Your Gut

I need a lot of structure in my life. It's definitely my safe space. My daily routine is that of a crazy person's lol.

I've said it for years - my daily routine is the number one thing I attribute to almost all of the success I've achieved in life. Definitely from a business perspective.

But sometimes I become too rigid. I tend to take things too far and too much structure in my life can be limiting; it becomes restrictive. I've gotten better at this. I know that if I want to add something new it means something else has to go. I'm already at my max.

My goal is structured flexibility - I'm still working on it.

I've spent years building blocks into my calendar. I have an obsession with optimizing every single minute of my day. Productivity is my favorite word. But I now realize that while this was once a strength, it is actually holding me back.

I have no room for intuition or inspiration.

When it strikes, I add it to my list. And it sits there for weeks with all the other ideas, waiting to shine. Nothing can come off that list until it's complete, oh no no!

I have a problem you see, and it's one I've created for myself.

Over the past 6+ months, I have spent every morning doing an exercise that allows me to tap into the wisdom of my subconscious mind. For a few moments, I let ideas flow and capture them in my journal. Out of it spills ideas and words of encouragement, moments of inspiration designed specifically to help me achieve my goal. This goal of manifesting a million dollars.

But I squander it. Maybe not daily, but often enough that it's a problem that merits fixing.

I don't do this willingly, but because I have walled in my garden, there's no room to let inspiration flourish. I have become obsessed with the idea of productivity and blinded in my desperation to achieve it. My vision has narrowed and I can't appreciate the beauty before my eyes.

I'm proud to say I'm getting better but I've got a lot of unlearning to do here.

It's not the ideas that sit in waiting that are going to help me achieve my goals. What got me here won't get me there. Those moments of inspiration are the only way I can break free from this version of myself to become the more successful me.

But simply having these ideas is not enough. I need to act on them in the moment. I need to create the space for them to flourish and grow.

It's a delicate balance of structure and freedom. Setting aside time to do nothing at all so that it may be filled with inspiration when the time comes.

It's those ideas, those feelings, that inspiration that changes my life - not more of the same. I need to follow my intuition and I need to give myself the space and permission to do so. I need to get out of my own way because if there's anything that I've learned on this journey it's that the only one standing in my way is me.

Join me on this journey...

I am manifesting $1M working for myself this year. Follow the Manifest a Million Challenge every Sunday through Thursday night - a look at my progress, plans, and thoughts throughout it all.

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