Too Shallow, Too Deep

Well, It's been a while since we met. My hands were tingling as I had not written in a while. Well, yes, It is the same excuse as always - Life, it gets in the way.

Funny, Ain't it. Life getting in the way of Life? Well, Been studying Grammar, so I just thought of this phrase as we're told to derive meaning after seeing the grammar. Though, Grammar seems to be okay. Life gets in the way! Of what, a slow voice in my head, it asked, you know just to eradicate the ambiguity of the language. And I didn't know, I mean, it certainly could only refer back to life.

Not sure, though, as I write it. Now taking a deep breath, a breath of satisfaction. Because I am writing something and no one is going to correct me, to shorten my words, to tell me what user might find better, it is my outlet of expressing 'my authentic self'. No book can say - 'Ennhrr, It was A not C.' No one to point that the button should've been a little bigger or brighter. (that actually happens, not a meme)

Just my keyboard, the screen, my phone lying on it's back so I don't see if there is any notification, and even without any changes to the window and door position, I feel a breath of fresh air. Ah! Didn't know how good would it feel to finally express a lot of what was on my mind.

Well, I have been journaling, Not a big fan of it I think, but I like gratitude journaling, well, because that makes a worse day, a little less worse or maybe something about perspective, whatever keeps you going.

Well, It is funny how time passes by, A lot of months of not writing, How do we get here, Life gets in the way, right?

But how does it do that and can we let it not get in the way?

I have found a new obsession - youtube aesthetic vlogs which sometimes are inspirational, and I think that led me here, on this page again, after so long.

I can't promise how frequent I will be here, but I know it wouldn't be as quite as it had been. I love writing, it is what makes me 'my authentic self'. So, I will be back with something better.

With Hope,

Ayushi <3