Talking to Tommy

Like whispers on the wind at night

Or sunshine in a lover’s smile

I still expect to see you appear

In your ragged, awkward style

I feel that I have failed you

For I could not conceive a plan

To quell your fear of loneliness

And the self respect of a man

Trust me many plans were made

Along dark roads with your Mom

Yet as morning broke the prairie sky

We would come up empty feeling numb

You truly made an impact on me

The first friend I made in the bar

And when I left for other’s sins

You would not let me stray too far

So why were you the one who went astray?

Why could I not bring you back to us?

Was I a coward in plans to talk with you?

Was I afraid I would make your family fuss?

I feel shock and emptiness these days

Knowing that your gone from our lives

A dull pain like an aching of the bones

With the swift cut of a thousand knives

I hope you did forgive me at last

For the time you felt my words had betrayed

But in truth even then I worried

For you fought foes that can’t be slayed

Now your gone and it all seems pointless

I will never know what I could have done

So I will cling to memories of better times

Of your sly smile and moments of fun.

?I’ll raise a glass to your memory

Remind myself of all good things

For I am sure there is now in Heaven

An angel who already earned his wings.