For Today

It’s just after 10:00 am. I’m on my second cup of coffee, which isn’t nearly enough, especially considering I let my first cup get cold while I stared out my window. Maybe you did, too. And for today, that’s okay.

Late last night and into the early hours of this morning, I kept thinking, “What are we going to do? What are we going to do?” I don’t have the answer to that fully formed yet. And for today, that’s okay.

But for today, I do know a few things.

I know I am the same person I was when I went to bed last night. It all still checks out. In the quiet of the morning, I ask my broken heart, “Do you still believe in the same thing?” She answered with a resounding yes. And for today, that’s all I needed to hear.

For today, I will rest and seek comfort in the friends and family with whom I feel safe.

For today, I will be a safe harbor for anyone feeling unmoored and afraid.

For today, I will take a walk and breathe. In and out. In and out.

For today, I will pay attention to the fear, anger, and disgust that rise up in me. I will remind them that all emotions are welcome to visit but they are not allowed to take up permanent residence.

For today, I will reinforce the boundaries that keep me healthy.

For today, I will plant some bulbs for spring and take my car to the carwash because those are things I can control.

For today, I will continue to choose love over hate because tomorrow, there is work to be done.