Today, I Baked

It’s a Sunday night , 27th of February, the year is 2023. It’s 2240hrs,??

I should be in bed, or maybe I should be reading, or writing, just anything but numbers! :)

I peep through the oven glass and I think, mh! They look set,

The dim yellow light calmly and gently rests its rays over the muffins,

I sigh with relieve and a light of heart of feeling.

The blues fade-;, I smile, split second twist and take that walk of confidence and satisfaction to my bedroom,

The clock on my phone says 2244hrs,

I remember the promise earlier, I will be in my bed by 2200hrs,?

But right now!, right this moment!, I feel excitement, something more important, more meaningful and more fulfilling is happening!?

I am baking.

Today,?I baked muffins, I did not have to think about it,

I can’t wait to taste a warm one, I can’t wait to feel the softness and fluffiness in my mouth.?

I like to eat them as much as I like to bake them,

I eat my bakes, I crave them.?

I have not baked for a month or so..,

But today I baked.

30 mins down and I get an urge to peep in through that oven glass again,

I open it instead, I don’t think of the hand glove, it’s just a peep anyway, or so I thought,

But I thrust my hand in and I burn my index finger,

The finger is now under running water, but I can still feel the burn,

The oven door is open, I can see the mildly brown crust?

The yellow light over the muffins makes them look golden, I like the glow!

I can’t keep the finger under water any more,

My mind is on the muffins, I feel the excitement,

And I want to take a bite,

Finally it’s in my mouth, and I can feel the joy and the relaxation?

Today I baked?

On my bed, I lay down with a feeling of accomplishment, I baked, and suddenly the question flashes back again?

Was it for the love or the therapy??

GK