TIMES AND SEASONS

Dearest reader,?

I’m slowly learning to pace myself and enjoy my season of growth. As Human beings, there is this tendency to want to grow, and get better at whatever it is we do, but I’ve come to understand that, it can either be a good thing or a bad thing. Good in the sense that, the need to grow is what pushes us to become better versions of ourselves.

But on the flip side, if we are only consumed and focused on where we want to be, and how we plan to enjoy this “future” that we have built in our minds, how big and better we want to get, we lose sight of who we are now.?

I’ve also come to realize in this my short life, ( short because I’m a child and still growing LOL)? that any stage of our life that you don’t enjoy, or any stage of our life that you despise probably because you are broke ( like me ??) or you feel like you’ve not “made it”,? can never be gotten back.?

Sometimes I look back at my life and I realize that I have not been enjoying it the way I want to.?

I remember when I was 17/18 years old, like 3 years ago, (OMG I’m old ??) all I wanted was to be cool, and now that I think about it, that sounds stupid.?

that was what filled my mind.

?I have always been a fat kid, and in secondary school, I was teased for it a lot, at that point I hated myself and I wanted to be like the other girls in my class, who were skinny and considered “pretty”.?

I went through extreme measures to be skinny and “beautiful”. At a point, I almost starved myself just because I wanted to be skinny. I hated the fact that I was “boring’, fat, and didn’t fit in.

I didn't enjoy my teenage years because I was so bothered by what other people thought of me that I couldn't even think for myself. I didn't know who I was or what I wanted.?

As a result, I developed low self-esteem and I became clingy.?

What a sad life ??.

I didn't learn to enjoy and accept my body the way it was, I allowed others to define what beauty was for me, and when I discovered that I didn't look like their definition of beauty, I became sad.

I didn't learn anything from my teenage years of growth because I didn't like myself, I didn't like the stage I was in, and I wanted to be like someone else.

Three years later, I found Christ and I found my identity in Him, I then realized that the people I envied and patterned by life after weren’t even happy after all.?

What a Joke ??.

From this experience, I realized, that whatever stage you are, in your journey in Life, you should try to enjoy it and make the most out of it.?

Learn to enjoy your season of growth, even while aspiring to be in a better place.?

This is a difficult realization that I had to come to terms with because we live in a world that has conditioned us to despise little beginnings. And I understand that growth can be painful, and growth comes with growing pains.

?You might have to deal with lack or put up with difficult people and difficult situations, but you have to learn to live through it, enjoy it, and ultimately learn from it because whether you like it or not, there’s always something to learn from this experience.?

I’m also in my season of growth, and most times I’m tempted to complain, cry or grumble about it, but the Holy Spirit has been teaching me how to hold on and persevere, to enjoy my season of growth, and be happy in it.?

And one thing about the season of growth is that it doesn’t last forever, it’s only for a while. Life is in seasons and stages, and what we do during this season of growth matters a lot and shapes who we later become.

If all you do is cry and sit about lamenting, you would be wasting precious time.?

For me, I have decided to see my season of growth as a time to learn and upskill, I may not have a job now, I may not be where I want to be, and I may still be broke( LOL),? but I’m putting all the necessary measures to ensure that when my growing season is over, I would come out strong, mature and ready to face whatever nonsense life throws at me.

Dearest reader, what season are you in?? And how has it been for you? tell me in the comments section I would love to hear it.

Love, Lysa.????