Through My Birthday Reflection to Your Soul

Years ago, I was practicing an inner journey to discover my values and life purpose statement. My eyes were closed and with the guide of the course leader, I was slowly leaving everything I had been though till that moment;

leaving corporate career,

running between two countries to lead two law firms,

questioning my skills, experience, reason of existence, purpose,

four pregnancies that I lost my children and it is only called either missed carriage or ectopic pregnancy [I noticed my wet face but did not open my eyes at that moment],

a best friend's betrayal that is still freshly sitting in my throat like a round, solid rock,

oh! and broken wings of my heart, oh, my poor heart!

I took a deep breath once again to leave them all behind...

Amazing scenes from the countries I visited since leaving legal profession was so vividly in front of my eyes; especially Rishikesh, Bali, Maldives...

["Exhale..."]

All the training I have been through till that moment, shamans, healers, therapists, women circles, spiritual dances... [I took a deep breath, accepted them all in, all precious experiences]

And many more light and many more shadow... ["Even if you do not accept, acknowledge..."]

After leaving all behind, I found myself in an incredible garden of an amazing home, all garden furniture is white, smell of jasmines in the air and every shade of green all around...

I noticed it was my home... [It was surprising because I was living at the 33rd floor of a skyscraper at that time in real life.]

I started to walk in this amazing garden, touched and smelled all the flowers. [sense of longing and belonging at the same time]

I saw my daughter was running to me... Oh my god! She was a teenager, a gorgeous girl, she was grown so much...

While she was running to me, I noticed another child in the garden, observing ants and tracking them... I felt that it was my second child. [Started to cry at that moment in the class, still my eyes are closed and I am fully submitted to the inner journey.]

My daughter came and hugged me, saying "I am so grateful that your are my mom" and continued talking about the day.

I noticed all my family, relatives and friends started to come in to the garden with the warm smiles on their faces. [I was surprised again as with some of them our relationship was distanced in real life]

They came all one by one, gave me hugs, shared their gratitude. They were all celebrating me and saying about change, transformation and impact...

Everybody was so excited, grateful and fulfilled.

Then came a group of women with flowers and the cake... They were my colleagues, powerful women who touch lives...

Many letters started to rain, thanking me about the change, transformation they have been through.

I noticed it was my birthday and they were all celebrating me and my impact...

I started to walk in the garden, connected with every flower and plant then looked at the home and saw my reflection on the window; an older, wiser Senem with few gray hair...

["when you are ready, please slowly open your eyes..."]

Back to real life and time to reflect on the inner journey to create a life purpose statement...

It was my turn, I stood up in front of almost 30 people and I said

"I am the mother nature that nourishes."

I was crying and participants too, they were applauding. It was a magical day witnessing and connecting to each other from the potential we event did not consciously know the existence of.

That week, I found a new house for my family; a small house with a huge garden as a staring point. I had the courage to say good-bye to everything and everyone did not serve me at that particular time. Energy of letting go was so lifting...

I had given away every outfit of my wardrobe (majority of them were black), bought brand new flowery, colorful clothes that I had never tried in my life.

I enrolled to the courses of the universities that I had been admiring...

I took even more radical step of posting on facebook and instagram "I am providing Pro-bono coaching sessions, would you like to try?" and I met with incredible people.

Months passed by and I was at the graduation of the coaching school, the leader asked me to present my life purpose statement and the vision. I was 7 months pregnant, in my flowery dress, calm and fulfilled while saying

"I am a mother nature that nourishes and my vision is coaching more people pro-bono so we create a better future."

The leader was looking at my flowery dress, pregnancy belly and right into my eyes and she said

"I can truly see you are. And I am asking you your life purpose statement and vision, please go and revisit now."

It was my second big AHA! moment... Potential is becoming reality once it is fulfilled and the new potential is unfolding for further growth...

The new search of mine led me starting my coaching business in August 2019 as a mother of two, who survived a very risk pregnancy. Since then a new chapter of my life is starting with every layer of actualizing a potential.

Today is the first morning of my 39th year while reflecting on 180UTC Leader's Agenda 2023 about all these memories... 180UTC is an award winning coaching company and I am the multi-award winning founder of it. My linkedin inbox is full with messages about my birthday. My beloved daughters are still sleeping in their warm beds. I am surrounded by people I have chosen to be together with. I am walking the talk every day purposefully to create a better world with many other amazing people.

I am grateful for this blessed life and passionate about creating more impact with full dedication.

I am grateful for the human potential that consistently unfolds itself.

I am grateful for all radical actions taken despite the fear.

I am grateful for every layer dropped on the way to authenticity.

And you...

Yes you... who is spending her/his time to read these sentences...

It is not a coincidence, you felt called to read this article.

You are longing for a new beginning, a new chapter of your life, aren't you?

You feel the fear, you are hesitant...

There is a voice in you, you do not know where it comes from, it is calling you for change and you are trying hard to ignore it. Because listening to that sound feels crazy, out of the comfort zone, very much unknown.

Your potential is in you, like six-packs that in reality everybody has, but mostly top of it is covered with fat and only people who consistently works for it can reduce that fat and make those muscles stronger and visible.

I request your permission to remind you something you deep down know;

YOU ARE ENOUGH,

YOU ARE UNIQUE,

YOU ARE THE LIGHT,

YOU ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE.

And...

"What you are seeking is seeking you." Rumi

so,

LIVE YOUR AUTHENTIC POTENTIAL BOLDLY.