Thank you 2019 ??????
I am sat on the bus ride home from a wonderful New Year celebration in the countryside. The sun lights up the sky in brilliant clouds of pink and orange. I feel myself slow down inside and reflect on a decade of change.
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The start of a new year is always full of big promises, and a lot of them empty. But what I have come to realise once more today, is that so much of what I thought I needed when I started the year was not what I needed at all.
Have you ever found this to be true?
Today I have come to peace with the fact that I never really know what I need unless I slow down enough to listen to the voice of love that lives inside.
This voice is often concealed by a false voice masquerading as love.
A smart imposter with all the intelligence and quick-wittedness of me at my best only turned against myself.
What I realised this year, was that until we forgive ourselves for who we think we are, we can never become who we are destined to be.
So please take this is a little message from my heart to yours, as we walk into this decade together:
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Slow down. Walk tall. Breathe in deeply
Make a conscious connection to your heart. Be with you, all of you the light and the dark.
Your only job is to accept who you are, as you are. Connect with the child that lives within you.
Become aware of all that he or she has been deprived of. Become the parent or leader you waited to come and save you back then.
Forgive yourself constantly in every moment. Forgive yourself profoundly, approach forgiveness like a man whose hair is on fire approaches a river.
Recognise the part of you that despises you, listen to it weave its nasty lies.
Be with it, don't run away. Let the light of your loving presence dissolve it like salt in the river. Become aligned with the truth of who you truly are.
Peel back the layers of self-hate. Take off the endless masks and false ideals.
Come face to face with the loving essence you truly are.
Dream bigger, love bigger, give bigger
Quit convincing yourself that you know who you are.
You don't.
And this is great news…
To everyone who I have supported and who have supported me this past year I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart ??????