Temptation... the beginning and end

I don't even know what takes over my mind when I'm faced with temptation. I don't even know why my mind knows what to do, but always end up in a state of hesitation.

It shouldn't be this hard to break free from the enemy. Every time I fall victim, it sucks out my energy.

Like the sun battling with the clouds to be seen, and after some hours it just fades away & hides until the next day.

This is how I feel when I'm faced with temptation.. my body wants instant pleasure, but my heart wants to do better.

You would think its up to me, that I control everything. But my mind wanders so easily, it feels like it's controlling me.

I know I can commit, I know I can put up a wall of defense. I know when the time comes, I'll be looking through a clear lens.

Take it for what it's worth, not what you want it to be. Pay attention to the signs, don't be blinded by a fantasy.

If you want it bad enough & it's meant to be then it'll happen.. But if it's not just let it go, and leave in an orderly fashion.