Telling The Truth
This year, I wrote Deeply Personal: Notes from Facing My Mother Wound, a book about truth and healing - which doesn't always feel good. While at times, truth is uncomfortable, it is also freeing - which is a feeling I've desperately desired.
In my search for freedom, for joy, for the life I want, I had no idea that it would only come on the other side of facing the truth about my childhood and the truth about my mother.
Which is so weird to even write and share.
For much of my life and in many of my relationships, I'd kept things kind of surface, kind of light. In my art, I've been willing to have hard conversations and share some hard truths but the depths I go in Deeply Personal, I didn't even know existed.
I've interpreted the world as I've experienced my mother: only embracing things that feel good, that are comfortable, that are easy. Avoiding things that are disruptive, challenging, disagreeable.
Avoiding things that are painful.
I was that way. But I am not anymore.
Freedom for myself and for my inner child only comes on the other side of telling the truth. And not just truths about the things that happened long ago - truths about the things that are happening right now.
Truths about the things I don't like.
Truths about the people I feel uneasy around.
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Truths about the dangers of another Trump term.
Truths about the envy I feel after scrolling social media.
Truths about needing validation from the people in my life.
Truths about the fear I feel in following this new path.
Truths.
Big or small.
Freedom is on the other side of all-sized truths.
And we don't have to share our truths on social media or in our art for them to have meaning. The truths we speak only to ourselves matter too. In the body, all truths weigh the same.
I love that writing and illustrating have floated to the top of how share my truth, how I alchemize my feelings. It feels good to have discovered and embraced these two. And in truth, I don't know that I discovered them.
I think we've found our way back to each other.