Talking about my work andachievements...

I recently had an experience, that put the importance of talking about my work and achievements into a clear perspective for me.

A friend asked me about software customizations that I had made, for the healing transmissions I do for clients. I offered the information to him for free, with the intention of supporting him.?He ended up assuming that what I was sharing wasn’t a big deal, or anything significant.?

Initially I blamed my friend for making me feel unvalued, and for negating the knowledge, experience, and efforts that I put into creating what I did. It was by no means his fault. I had not taken any effort to recognize it myself or share the details of what I had offered him, with the words I said to him - “I am happy to share my customizations with you”.?

Internally, I had a rather unpleasant experience trying to correct my initial error in a discussion with him, as I explained what my work was worth.?

Then I decided to really go deep inside and check what it was that I had offered to him. And so, I dug out the details of my work. Even if the effort of software customization and data entry of information from dozens of books and websites is not considered, (and even that was a lot) it was still a decade of carefully curated research. All my understanding from reading, self-work, sessions with clients etc. was distilled and the best of the best was chosen, based on my experience, to be put into the software. For me it was done in bits and was collected so gradually, that I didn’t even realize the value of the IP that I had.?

As I went through the process, it also reminded me of the wealth of information, therapy processes, healing modalities, psychological understanding, compassion, empathy, divine connection, etc. that have been a part of the last 10 years of working with GD, all of which was being taken for granted and not valued at all.?

In spite of having done this activity and communicated the result to my friend, there was still discomfort within about how things had played out. I worked with GD on this feeling and he made me realize 3 things which brought me peace:

1.????My friend did not value my work, because I did not value my work - it was a reflection. There is a core wound of not being valued that repeatedly gets triggered.

2.????I don’t speak about my work out of the belief that my work should speak for itself. The problem with this is that no one knows about my work, so it can’t speak for itself. Even if they do, they won’t understand its worth unless it’s explained to them in terms they can understand.?

3.????It was a programmed pattern to offer what I had without putting in any awareness or guidance into it. I valued my image of a spiritual and unattached person more than anything. This was the first opportunity that brought it to light because this image had never caused resentment before.?

The gift that this incident brought to me was very significant… a realization of the value of what I have to offer others: materially, intellectually, emotionally, and most importantly as Awareness.?

Hopefully this incident will also show others like me, the folly of these limiting points of view we hold, and inspire them to work on overcoming them. I plan to do more inner work on the 2nd and 3rd points and will share my insights if I find any.?