Take action from your imagination.

I like using my imagination, I can imagine every single thing, from a small breath to a big life change. Believe me, I did live in my fantasy dream life in the past.

I haven't written down my plan for this year yet, but it's all in my mind, and I will put it into action.

Like today, I took some action. I'm so proud of myself, and I told myself I should do this more often. But don't worry, it's never too late.

I'm a big movie fan. When I didn't know what to do at the beginning I was thinking that I'd just go to the theater by myself and enjoy a movie. But today I decided to send a message to invite my friend to come and join me. Even though I knew my friend might already be busy with something else, I still sent the message. Unfortunately, I still ended up watching the movie by myself. But this time I wasn't in a bad mood, I still really enjoyed the movie and I didn't regret sending the message.

Then, as I walked back home, I realized that I hadn't spoken a single word to anyone that day. My mouth had been shut for a whole day. I told myself I needed to do something to change this. I needed to speak to someone, anyone. Because one of my missions is to improve my English speaking this year, I thought I needed to find a foreigner to talk to. Then I walked and walked and walked until I'd almost given up. Suddenly, I saw a foreigner sitting alone outside a bar. Some actions and conversions suddenly came into my head, "Should I go sit down and talk to him for a moment? " and " Hello, can I sit here?" ... I set a mission for myself that I needed to practice my English everyday for at least half an hour..."Is it ok for you to talk?" I ran and ran and ran this conversion in my head, I felt super super nervous, and my heartbeat became super fast. I walked around that area twice and I saw him still sitting there alone, but I still didn't have enough confidence to go and say "Hi." I went to the restroom, took a deep breath, and then came out again. Luckily, he was still there, but with a cigarette. I told myself, " S**t, I don't like smokers," and then I left again. I suddenly stopped, stood there for 10 seconds and told myself, " You just need to take this action and speak to him. Why do you care if he's a smoker or not?" Then finally I walked up to this guy and said, " Hi, do you speak English? Can I sit here? I almost gave up, when I saw you. I set a mission for myself this year that I have to practice my speaking everyday, because I'll take a test for IELTS..." 

I made it! I pushed my fear away and took action. We talked for about an hour, then we said goodbye. It was a nice conversation, even though he wasn't an English native speaker. But that's not the point, my point is people like me, we always think too much instead of putting things into action, I know it's not a good habit. Because I think too much, I don't usually tell people what's on my mind. What if I say something boring, or meaningless or no one cares what I say? What if I don't tell a good joke? I'm not a funny person, blah blah blah...I always care too much about what people think of me. The truth is who cares? Relax, it's just a conversion, take it easy.

Someone or something new might make you anxious, I can totally understand. So I tell myself to speak out, to say what I want to express, to tell people what I want, to take action when I realize there's nothing to lose and maybe sometimes I'll learn something from the action. Life is full of surprise.

I think this isn't an issue for many people. But, for people like me, you could try my suggestion. I'm going to keep doing this: To speak out and take action. Tell people what's on your mind, what your opinion is, what's a better solution you think might work. Take action when you think it could help. Just remember one thing, if you don't take action, you'll never know the answer.

So, be brave, be a better you.

Your love.