summer within

It has been a while since I haven't been around here - here is a reflection of the past few months.?

June 20th - the longest day of the year, solstice, the official beginning of summer.?

We are all hoping that proper summer will eventually arrive—when swimming in the lake becomes part of the routine rather than an occasional, non-consistent happening. In Zürich, we had a hint of it yesterday, and let's hope that more of those come in the next few months.

Independent of how the weather looks outside, though, the topic of internal sunshine has been surrounding my environment more and more. That commitment to stay content and shine bright inside, independent of what the exterior brings us.

It is not always the most straightforward mission, but I am committed to master it.

It has been eight months since I returned to Switzerland, four months since I moved into my apartment (without an expiry date) after not having a home for nearly four years, and two months since I realised how much I had forgotten myself.?

I was aware that coming back to Switzerland would be a challenging decision, but one thing is knowing the theory, and the other is living it.

Depression, insecurity, the need to adapt exercise routines due to injury, weight gain, new ways of working, fatigue due to low iron levels, internal pressure, finding my way in this "new" environment, and the need to constantly reinvent oneself have been a few of the challenges I have faced since I arrived back.?

A constant path of adjustment, understanding what is essential and seeking that balanced version of myself in this reality. A bumpy ride.?

Sometimes, I wish I hadn't come back, and sometimes, I think about what would have been if I had chosen another route.?

Occasionally, I question everything—why am I where I am? Why am I doing what I am doing?

But it all disappears again with the strong feeling that I am where I am supposed to be, as challenging and uncertain as it seems at times.?

There's no other place or situation I could imagine being other than this present reality. They say you only receive that which you are able to handle—this has been by far one of my most challenging times, but I know that, with time, this too shall pass, and new doors will open that I can't see yet.?

It is said that time is the best healer of all. So let time take its time and slowly send the little missing keys, the pieces of each chapter, to slowly continue understanding our journey and gather the knowledge needed for the chapters yet to come.?

Thus, today, I celebrate. I celebrate the beginning of summer—my internal one—for more sunshine, for brighter moments, and for continuing swimming routinely rather than occasionally, for embracing all parts, independent of how scattered they seem to be at times, and making the best out of the decisions I chose to make.

With it, an image of a place I hold dearly within me - a place that acts as a safe space for me, a hub of silence, where everything seems to fade away, and only the true essence of myself remains.?

I look forward to revisiting it very soon and, in the meantime, sharing it with you here as a fine art print so you can have a piece of this serene location at your home and find the silence in your day-to-day: https://www.majajuzwiak.com/shop-fineart/p/fluhalp-zermatt

PM me if you have any inquiries, and share below where is your favourite place for connection? ??