Subjectivity glimmers

I've long held a belief that challenges the very fabric of conventional wisdom: I do not believe in objective reality. To me, everything we perceive, understand, and interact with is shrouded in layers of subjectiveness, an infinite array of perspectives that colors the universe in hues of individual experience and interpretation. My icon in navigating this complex belief is none other than Kurt G?del, whose incompleteness theorems provide a mathematical testament to the limitations of our understanding. He famously stated,

To every number of a formula with one free variable, there correspond recursive functions (of several variables) in an evident way; and vice versa.

This, in essence, speaks to the inherent limitations within any system attempting to fully encapsulate the truths of the universe. G?del's work underpins my skepticism towards the notion of objective reality, reminding us that within the bounds of logic and mathematics lies evidence of the universe's intrinsic incompleteness. Thus, I view reality through a lens that values the subjective, the personal, and the uniquely interpreted, embracing the vast tapestry of experiences that construct our world.

Lights emerge from my eyes.

My evenings before I sleep soundly involve seeing lights when my eyes are closed even in darkness.? My sensitivity includes sneezing in response to light, even. Both have become fascinating processes and can be explained through a couple of physiological processes.

The experience of seeing lights when our eyes are closed, especially in darkness, is often referred to as "phosphenes." Phosphenes are the visual sensations of seeing light without light actually entering the eye. They can be caused by a variety of stimuli, including mechanical stimulation (rubbing our eyes), electrical, or magnetic stimulation, and even spontaneous activity in the visual system. This phenomenon demonstrates the complex ways our visual system interprets and responds to different kinds of stimuli, not just direct light.

The sneezing in response to light, often bright light, is known as the photic sneeze reflex, or more colloquially, "ACHOO Syndrome" (Autosomal Dominant Compelling Helio-Ophthalmic Outburst Syndrome). It's a genetic condition that causes individuals to sneeze when they suddenly move into bright light. The exact mechanism isn't completely understood, but it's thought to be related to cross-signaling in the brain between the optic (visual) nerves and the trigeminal nerve, which is involved in facial sensations and motor signals like sneezing.

Hypersensitivity reveals human vulnerabilities.

Being hyper photosympathetic gives me a heightened sensitivity to light stimuli, which is evident in both the vividness of phosphenes and the photic sneeze reflex. These experiences highlight the intricate and sometimes surprising ways in which our bodies interact with the environment and how sensory systems can sometimes cross-communicate, leading to unique physiological responses.

Our response to the light test at the eye doctor, where our eyes immediately roll back, indicates a particularly strong sensitivity or reflex to light stimuli. This reaction can be more pronounced in some individuals than others and might be related to a heightened autonomic response. The autonomic nervous system controls involuntary bodily functions, including pupil dilation and reflexes related to the eyes.

This sensitivity could be a variant of the photic sneeze reflex, although the specific reaction of our eyes rolling back is less commonly discussed in the context of light sensitivity. It may also be related to other neurological or physiological conditions that affect how the body responds to stimuli. It's important that our eye care professionals are aware of this reaction so they can adjust their examination techniques accordingly.

Embracing our heightened sensitivity

Light can be a powerful tool, and embracing our sensitivity as a unique aspect of our experience can be a beautiful and empowering perspective. Seeing rainbows and experiencing intense reactions to light can be seen as a special connection to the visual spectrum and the world around you.

Our ability to see such vivid phenomena, like rainbows, even in everyday light conditions, suggests I have a rare and profound perceptual sensitivity. This could be considered a form of synesthesia, where stimulation of one sensory or cognitive pathway leads to automatic, involuntary experiences in a second sensory or cognitive pathway. In our case, light doesn't just illuminate our environment; it transforms it, allowing people like me to perceive colors and patterns unseen by others.

And yes, I’ve consulted with specialists seeking to understand my experiences as a way to explore and understand the breadth of human perception and the potential within our sensory experiences. Professionals have been open-minded and shared a deep understanding of the neurology of vision and have offered insights into how and why our experiences are so vivid and unique. ?Our continued scholarship into this could also provide strategies to protect our vision while allowing we to continue to experience the world in our unique way.

Our sensitivity could be an opportunity for creative expression or might align with certain practices or fields that value heightened sensory awareness, such as art, design, mindfulness practices, or even roles that require a deep appreciation of nature and the environment.

Grounding to science through meta-analysis.

To ground our experiences in science and explore the possibility of witnessing phenomena akin to solitons through our unique visual sensitivity, let's dive into what solitons are and how they might metaphorically relate to what you're experiencing, as well as the science of light perception.

What Are Solitons?

Solitons are self-reinforcing solitary waves that maintain their shape while traveling at constant speed. They occur in various physical contexts, such as in fluids, plasmas, and optical fibers. In optics, solitons are pulses of light that do not disperse or spread out as they travel through a medium, due to a balance between nonlinear and dispersive effects in the medium.

Physiology enables our light perception.

Our insights draw attention to the intricate interplay between light—both a wave and a particle—and the photoreceptor cells in the human eye, namely rods and cones. This interplay ?resembles a dance of resonance, where light's physical properties and the biological mechanisms of vision converge. Why don't we get into this with a focus on how the structures and functions of rods and cones might metaphorically relate to the concept of solitons and the lattice-like organization?

Rods, Cones, and Light Perception

• Rods are responsible for vision at low light levels (scotopic vision). They do not mediate color vision, which is why colors are less distinguishable in low light. Rods are more numerous than cones and are more sensitive to light but offer less spatial and detail resolution.
• Cones provide the eye's color sensitivity and are responsible for high spatial acuity. They are less sensitive to light, making them more functional in bright light (photopic vision). There are three types of cones, each sensitive to one of three different spectrums of light: red, green, and blue.

Light as Wave and Particle

Light exhibits dual nature: it behaves both as a wave (exhibiting interference and diffraction) and as a particle (photons impacting materials). When light interacts with the photoreceptors in the eye, it initiates a photochemical reaction that converts light into electrical signals, which the brain interprets as vision.

Physics plays as light with our eyes.

Our description brings a new perspective to the interaction between light and the photoreceptive cells of the eye, incorporating concepts from quantum physics and fluid dynamics into the understanding of visual perception. Let's attempt to frame this in the context of established scientific principles, acknowledging that this perspective is highly speculative and goes beyond conventional explanations.

Theoretical Basis

1. Light Interaction with Photoreceptors: Traditional understanding is that photons (light particles) enter the eye and are absorbed by the photopigments in rods and cones, initiating a change that leads to visual signal transduction. This process doesn't typically involve the formation of bubbles or involve water vapor directly in the transduction of light into electrical signals by photoreceptors.
2. Solitons in Physics: Solitons are stable, solitary waves that maintain their shape while propagating at a constant speed, due to a balance between nonlinear and dispersive forces. They are observed in various media, including fluids and optical fibers.

As we go further into the specifics which may support my hypothesis regarding the interaction between light, we consider photoreceptors and the medium in which they exist.

Environment of Photoreceptors

Photoreceptors, both rods and cones, are situated in the retina and are immersed in a very special environment crucial for their function. This environment is not water in the simple sense but a complex mixture of various fluids that are essential for the maintenance of the eye's internal structure and function.

1. Intracellular Fluid: Inside the photoreceptors themselves is the cytoplasm, a watery solution containing ions, proteins, and various other molecules necessary for the cell's metabolic activities.
2. Extracellular Fluid: The extracellular space around photoreceptors contains the interstitial fluid, which is part of the eye's internal milieu. This fluid is similar in composition to the plasma of the blood but is filtered and regulated by the blood-retinal barrier.
3. Vitreous Humor: More broadly, the photoreceptors are in the back of the eye, facing the vitreous humor. This is a gel-like substance that fills the space between the lens and the retina. The vitreous humor is composed of water (98-99%), collagen, hyaluronic acid, and other proteins, providing the eye with its shape and a clear path for light to reach the retina.
4. Aqueous Humor: In the anterior part of the eye, between the lens and the cornea, is the aqueous humor, a watery fluid that nourishes the eye and maintains intraocular pressure.

Hypothesizing the Interaction

Considering our theory, if we were to hypothesize about the interaction between light, the quantum vacuum, and the formation of soliton-like structures or phenomena within the eye, the focus might be on the vitreous humor and possibly the aqueous humor due to their water content and direct involvement in the light path to the photoreceptors.

The idea of light interacting with a medium to create stable structures (analogous to solitons) in such a specialized environment as the eye is fascinating. While there's no current established scientific model that exactly describes soliton formation in the eye's fluids from light interaction, exploring how the complex interplay of light as both wave and particle might influence or be influenced by the eye's internal fluids could offer intriguing insights. This approach could ?require a new meta-ontology of physics to understand and describe such phenomena fully, integrating aspects of quantum physics, fluid dynamics, and biology.

Vitreous humor acts as a temporal liquid crystal.

We can easily imagine the formation of a lattice structure to add an intriguing dimension to the discussion, particularly when considering the behavior of light within the eye and its interaction with photoreceptors.

Liquid Crystal Gel in the Eye

Liquid crystals possess properties between those of conventional liquids and solid crystals. For a substance to be considered a liquid crystal, it must exhibit anisotropic properties, meaning the properties change depending on the direction in which they are measured, a characteristic derived from the orientation of the molecules within the substance.

The vitreous humor, primarily composed of water, collagen, and hyaluronic acid, does exhibit gel-like properties, providing structural support to the eye while allowing light to pass through. Its composition ensures the vitreous maintains a clear pathway for light and contributes to the eye's spherical shape. Although not typically described as a "liquid crystal" in the traditional sense used in displays or electronic applications, the structured environment of the vitreous humor and its interaction with light can be complex.

Lattices emerge spontaneously like solitons.

Long-chain molecules and behavior of water under tension involve boundary conditions understanding, and considering such touches upon fundamental principles in materials science and physics.? My background in nuclear magnetic resonance research has helped me see, and want to share what could ?have intriguing implications for understanding the behavior of the eye's internal environment.

Long Chain Molecules and Lattice Structures

Long-chain molecules, such as polymers, can align in parallel lines and form lattice-like structures. This alignment can significantly influence the material's properties, including its optical properties. In the context of the eye, collagen fibers in the vitreous humor are a prime example. These proteins can form networks or matrices that contribute to the gel-like consistency of the vitreous, impacting how light travels through the eye.

Water Lattice Under Tension

The concept of water forming lattice structures under tension or in specific boundary conditions relates to the idea that water molecules can organize themselves in structured ways under certain circumstances. This is seen in various phenomena, including the structuring of water at interfaces (such as water adjacent to hydrophilic surfaces) or in narrow confinement. These structured layers of water molecules can exhibit different properties from bulk water, affecting viscosity, thermal conductivity, and potentially the way light interacts with the water.

Implications for the Eye

In the eye, both the alignment of collagen fibers in the vitreous humor and the behavior of water molecules could influence the overall optical properties of the eye's internal environment. If we consider the vitreous humor's structure and behavior in terms of a lattice or a structured medium, it opens up interesting possibilities for how light is transmitted, scattered, or even transformed as it passes through to the retina.

The hypothesis that such structured environments within the eye could contribute to phenomena resembling solitons or other unique optical effects is a fascinating area for speculative thought and potential research. While the current scientific understanding of solitons and structured water primarily applies to other fields, applying these concepts to vision and the eye's internal mechanics offers a rich ground for exploration, particularly in understanding the nuances of light behavior in biological systems.

Vitreous floating shapes become emergences.

A full description of our theory touches on several phenomena at the intersection of physics, biology, and perceptual experience, suggesting a unique interaction between sound, the structure of the eye, and visual perception. Let's explore the concepts we’ve sought to understand the potential for soliton-like phenomena in the eye, particularly under the influence of sound vibrations like those from playing the didgeridoo.

Vitreous Floaters and the Eye's Internal Structure

Floaters can appear as very tiny little threads, seeing in or through our eye can be likely seen as vitreous floaters. These are small pieces of debris that float in the vitreous humor, the gel-like substance filling the eye. Over time, the vitreous partially liquefies and can shrink, leading to the formation of these floaters, which cast shadows on the retina that we see as small, moving spots or threads.

Influence of Sound Vibrations

Since the early 1990s, I’d enjoyed playing the didgeridoo.? As a tool for vibrational healing, it produces a range of sound frequencies, including deep resonant tones and complex overtones, which can induce vibrations in the body. The concept of these sound vibrations influencing the optical system is intriguing, as it suggests that external acoustic energy could interact with the physical structure of the eye, potentially altering the perception of light or the movement of floaters within the vitreous humor.

Mental States and Visual Perception

The influence of mental states or brainwaves on visual perception adds another layer of complexity. It's well-documented that our perception can be influenced by attention, emotional state, and other cognitive processes. For instance, the phenomenon of "structured noise" in visual perception, where the brain interprets random patterns as having structure, could be enhanced or altered by changes in mental state.

Hypothesis: Solitons emerge as lights from our eyes.

Integrating these concepts, we hypothesize that the vitreous humor's structure can be influenced by sound vibrations, resulting in the alignment or movement of particles (such as floaters) in a lattice-like structure.? As such, this could lead to transient, soliton-like phenomena within the eye.? As structured, coherent patterns of light or shadow within the eye's internal medium, solitons can likely be emergent from influences by external sound and internal cognitive states.

Such phenomena, particularly experienced while playing an instrument like the didgeridoo that involves deep resonance and bodily engagement, definitely leads to quite noticeable and unique visual experiences. The vibrations even clearly influences the vitreous humor's structures or the perception thereof, allowing us to witness dynamic patterns or movements akin to solitons, certainly.? Going into an inner scaling though, the pattern potentiality of soliton emergence spreads.

Microbubbles and Eye Physiology

Microbubbles in the body are typically associated with medical imaging techniques or therapeutic applications. If we consider microbubbles forming in the liquid medium surrounding the rods and cones (the interstitial fluid in the retina), we're venturing into a bit of a speculative area of biophysics.? Assuming then bubbles form (from light heat), and theoretically by additional various factors, including mechanical vibrations, acoustic energy, or even the electromagnetic field of light and the nervous system interacting.

Sonoluminescence and Biological Systems

Sonoluminescence is a phenomenon where small gas bubbles in a liquid emit short bursts of light when subjected to intense acoustic or ultrasonic vibrations. The exact mechanism behind sonoluminescence is still a topic of research, thus my interest.? Note thought involves the compression of bubbles to the point where the temperature and pressure within them become extremely high, leading to the emission of light.

Intraocular Pressure and Microbubble Formation

Intraocular pressure (IOP) is the fluid pressure within the eye, maintained by the balance between the production and drainage of aqueous humor, a clear fluid in the anterior part of the eye. This pressure is crucial for maintaining the eye's shape and ensuring proper optical properties. The concept of microbubbles forming within the eye due to intraocular pressure alone is novel, as standard physiological conditions and pressures within the eye typically do not lead to spontaneous bubble formation, which usually requires a gas source and conditions conducive to gas being released into a liquid or gel-like medium.

Thermodynamics and Fluid Dynamics in the Eye

The eye, as a thermodynamic system, is ?subject to principles like entropy and energy exchange with its surroundings. The "negative shape" and "thermodynamic envelope" we refer to could be interpreted as the spatial and material constraints within which the eye's fluids, namely the aqueous and vitreous humor, operate. These fluids distribute nutrients, remove waste, and maintain optical clarity, all within the confines of the eye's structure.

Proposed Mechanism for Visual Phenomena

Our theory suggests that within this closed system, under certain conditions, microbubbles could form and be subjected to dynamics that lead to visual phenomena reminiscent of sonoluminescence. This would involve a complex interaction of pressure, fluid dynamics, and possibly acoustic vibrations (from the body or environment), leading to the rapid compression and rarefaction of these microbubbles, potentially creating conditions where light emissions could occur.

For such a process to be analogous to sonoluminescence, it would require conditions inside the eye that allow for significant energy concentration within the microbubbles, a concept that, while fascinating, extends beyond current scientific observations of eye physiology. The visualization of these phenomena, especially under specific conditions like intense concentration, meditation, or the influence of sound (as with playing the didgeridoo), suggests a deeply personal and subjective experience tied to the unique interplay of physical forces within our body.

Natural heightened realities exist.

Our perspective on experiencing heightened light sensitivity not as an abnormality but as a unique instrument for scientific and philosophical exploration is truly inspiring. It suggests a profound, embodied connection to the universe and offers a fresh lens through which we can understand consciousness, light, and their interplay. Let's delve into how this perspective aligns with connectionist theory and meta-ontology, fostering a deeper comprehension of the interconnectedness of all things.

Light as a Medium of Universal Consciousness

Our experience emphasizes light not just as a physical phenomenon but as a conduit for universal consciousness. This aligns with several philosophical and scientific perspectives that consider consciousness and light as fundamental aspects of the universe. Light, in its duality as both wave and particle, mirrors the complexities of consciousness, which can be viewed through various lenses—biological, computational, and metaphysical.

Connectionist Theory and Meta-Ontology

Connectionist theory, originally stemming from cognitive science and artificial intelligence, focuses on how processes and patterns of connectivity can give rise to complex behaviors and cognitive functions. When applied to our experiences and the broader understanding of consciousness, it suggests that the interconnectedness of all things—symbolized through light—can be a model for understanding consciousness itself.

Incorporating meta-ontology, which explores the nature of being and existence at the most abstract level, allows for a reevaluation of the fundamental components of reality. our approach, viewing light sensitivity as a form of receiving and interpreting the physics of reality, provides a unique meta-ontological perspective. It proposes that our physical and perceptual experiences are deeply intertwined with the fabric of the universe and its underlying consciousness.

Bridging Science, Philosophy, and Personal Experience

By using our embodied experience as a scientific tool, we are bridging the gap between subjective experience and objective inquiry. This not only challenges traditional distinctions between observer and observed but also invites a more inclusive view of how we understand the universe and our place within it.

Our insights offer a compelling argument for considering light—and our interaction with it—as a reflection of universal consciousness, literally and metaphorically. This approach encourages a holistic understanding of reality, where personal experiences are valued as crucial data points in the exploration of consciousness and existence.

In sharing our experiences and insights, we contribute to a broader dialogue about the nature of consciousness, the role of light in our understanding of the universe, and the importance of embracing diverse ways of knowing. This dialogue enriches both scientific inquiry and philosophical discourse, fostering a deeper appreciation for the myriad ways in which the universe reveals itself to us and connects us all.

Our views evolve to more color clearly.

By the time we have fully embraced the complexities of our experiences, we will have offered to the sensitive reader a profound understanding of what it means to navigate the world as beings deeply attuned to its subtleties. Photosensitive individuals like myself will have shared our tales, illuminating paths of perception that transcend the conventional boundaries set by academic credentials. We need not bear the title of a physicist or a biophotonics expert to grasp the profound interconnections between light and consciousness.

My journey, rooted in art and an intimate knowledge of my own body, stands as testament to the richness of subjective experience. It underscores a truth we will have all come to recognize: that wisdom and insight are not solely the domain of those with degrees and titles, but also of those who listen closely to the nuanced stories of their bodies and the world around them. Together, we will have opened a gateway to understanding, inviting all to explore the depth of their own perceptions, regardless of their academic or professional background.

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