The Story of My Wild Dream

We often think time is running out and we won’t get to live how we most desire.

Time is abundant and also runs like a well-oiled machine. It is us. We have to change how and where we expend energy.

There was a time when I didn’t understand this.

My journey to find a different life started many years ago in Lake Atitlan, Panajachel, Guatemala.

I was so tired of the NYC and nonprofit grind.

I was determined to get off the grid in this quiet rest and yoga retreat space that had been approved by the local tribal communities. My teacher encouraged us to turn our cell phones off and put them away for the time we were here. It was incredibly difficult for me to consider this as a caregiver to an elderly parent.

I wanted so much to rest.

I felt guilt, shame, and misplaced loyalty for all kinds of things in my life.

As I sat there wondering what to do, I heard a voice say, "you’re not in control."

I exhaled deeply and messaged my mom to say, “I will be offline for seven days. If you need me, call the retreat space.” I then called my two friends and asked for that kind of help we never ask for -- To check on our parents while we rest.

It took about three days to really unplug and surrender to the experience.

I’m not sure if I ever fully surrendered, to be honest. and I learned so many things about my somatic self in the absence of the control issues and my hyper schedule. As I stepped into JFK airport, hearing all the sounds, noises, and conversations enter my personal space, I remembered, hearing myself say, this city is going to kill me.

It was then I started letting myself imagine a life outside of urgency.

A life not led in panic mode.

I wanted to feel that quiet. I wanted to hear my higher self guiding me. I wanted to be close to nature.

In order to face the colonized experience in my own body, I had to remember what mattered to me.

I realized the life I was living in NYC was out of alignment with my vision of the future.?

I found myself in a personal crisis. I released a marriage of cultural and social obligation. I gave up my career in the social justice sector.?

Even though I was advising and supporting many women of culture, I was struggling to understand these challenges from a new dimension.

It was then that a good friend recommended I try coaching.

On the second day of coaching school, I felt my own personal tree of life growing inside my belly. And I could feel a deeper kind of power, vulnerability, and connection being reborn in me. In the process of getting divorced and leaving my 9 to 5, I found my way to a new life where I recommitted to knowing myself and the needs of movement leaders.

In 2019, during the height of my coaching practice, I began to feel a deep longing for freedom. I was questioning some of the artificial white supremacy systems surrounding coaching and psychology. I wanted to find culturally relevant ways to access my own freedom and abundance.?

It was then that I heard my ancestors direct me to take a chance on leaving the United States and moving to Mexico. It was then that I found the kind of inner peace and silence necessary to witness and begin a deeper bench of inner work – questioning why work was before health, and how did money come before plants, air, and animals.?

I began a journey to really understand purpose and power from the inside. I spent time studying new and ancestral ways of healing the relationship with my own inner wisdom. I began looking at interdependent and collective models of community and relationships with new eyes.

It was during this process that I asked my guides to give me a roadmap to help women of culture remember who they were and begin their own journeys.?

This is not just my story. This is the story of how Wild Dreams was born.

The world has taught us to think our way out of the problem.

Yet so many colonized views live in our bodies and stand in contrast to what our spirit most desires. If you activate your body’s technology, you can begin practicing how to step into a way of being that aligns with your truth.

You can begin to find your way to purpose when you accept your body, identity, and your ancestors as they are without judgment. When you can accept what you have been given to work with in this life, you can begin to choose a path that is truly yours. This kind of acknowledgment and release helps you release excessive and unbalanced emotions and become more embodied in mind, body, and spirit.

I created the Wild Dreams program to help Women of Culture reconnect to their higher purpose while supported by other women who understand their journey.

The program is currently in open enrollment. Learn more about Wild Dreams.

If you would like to apply, click here.