A step forward

Every Sunday I write a list of things I want to achieve during the working week. It usually includes proposals to write, work to finish, presentations to develop and meetings to arrange. There was one objective that I set myself at the start of this week and that was to 'survive the week'.

Here I am on Friday night and I have just about achieved it. There were lots of downs and a couple of ups along the way. I have been really grateful for all the messages, cards and thoughts that have been sent to me at what is still a difficult and at times surreal experience. Nothing can prepare you for the death of a close loved one or parent.

I have realised that so many people have been through similar experiences, which I had never thought about before. And many have reached out to me as they understand personally the experience I, and my family, are going through. My clients have been amazing, offering to delay work, and trying to give me the space that I may need.

Today I had the chance to do some face-to-face work and with some old (sorry to say it) friends and colleagues. It was a good way to see how I would manage and whether I could cope with the work and also talking about what has happened. I had a good day and felt able to do both those things. This weekend may not be as good. I know it is not sensible to bury myself in work to escape the painful experience I am going through. But work is giving me a focus and a way to get through the days.

Being creative was Mum's big thing. She was prolific in her art, crafts and writing. So, being creative in my work, thinking about developing messages, producing documents and writing is the best way to pay tribute to my Mum. Today, for the first time in 10 days I felt able to think more creatively. One step at a time but the fact I love my work is a blessing in these difficult days.

Have a good weekend and if you can be creative in some way do it in memory of my Mum - Prudence.