So Much Change...

This morning I woke up feeling heavy.?As I sat down at my computer with my coffee, oatmeal (that I won’t eat), and my grapefruit, I kept asking myself why my heart felt so heavy.

I think the answer is that things are changing around me.?Things I can’t control.?Today my sweet girl, Zoe, graduates from high school and last Thursday, my 11-year-old daughter graduated from elementary school. ?

Ahhh, so much change, so much emotion, and so much joy.

My time as a mother thus far, ran through my head as I sipped my coffee and I couldn’t stop yearning for the past, the snuggles, the bedtime stories, the little bodies in my bed during thunderstorms, the countless booboos I’ve kissed…the little hands in mine.

So much change that I can’t control.?

Today is the day that things will begin to shift in my life, and I am still trying to figure out how to adjust and navigate through all of it, when really, all I want is for things to just stay as they are.

I want to be able to lift them up in my arms, I want to still be their best friend, I want to still cut things up in bite sizes, I want to still be able to kiss the top of their heads without tip toeing.?

But that time has gone.

So as my little family starts a new journey together, I know that my two daughters will need me less and I will need them more.

As my little family starts a new journey together, I know that what lies ahead will be scary, fun, exciting, challenging but also rewarding.

So much change is happening and even when that change is good, it doesn’t make it easy, it doesn’t mean that we won’t yearn for the way things were.

So as things change around me, I am trying to change.?I am trying to be what my daughters will need in the coming years.

When things continue to change for Zoe and Zara, as I know they will, I will be here, waiting…

Waiting to help them heal..

Waiting to hug them...

Waiting to hold their hands through the storms...

Waiting to lift them up...

Waiting to be their friend when they let me...

…But always loving them.

If you are experiencing change, like me, even good change; hang in there. You will be ok.?It will be ok.?

Change is good.?

If you're like me and you're just trying to get through all of the change; let's connect!