Snippet 1: Shimla Times
They say grief has no expiry date and I felt it on the 365th day when I decided I have to stop feeling guilty and ashamed of myself. It does not matter in the end if I was not forgiven and given a second chance after sincere repentance.
Maybe it was not in the power of the other to forgive.
I am not talking about forgetting. For now, I am taking it as inconceivable.
Lockdown taught me to sit with myself. This was a phase I stopped writing poetry, and when I say 'stopped', I mean I don't think in rhythms anymore. The words naturally took the course of crisp, knotted, prose, often lacking comprehensiveness.
Neither I was trying to be comprehensive back then.
I was only aware of the chaos my being was sinking in, and I grew adamant about simplifying the pain, the process of healing, growing, and living once again.
The two words that kept me going, steady, and afloat are: KINDNESS & SIMPLIFY
and they gradually manifested into the guiding principles of my life. Two sentences to which I was destined to return every single time I feel low, failing, lost, sad, and in no mind frame to continue.
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I had to be Kind to myself and to others and that does not stop in the instant. It had to continue, I had to stay kind to myself in every passing moment because the self that needs safe refuge has to be offered by me only. The gentle caress, the lauding pat on the back has to be mine only. The way you become your own cheerleader while you put a love reaction on your every LinkedIn post, remember?
I had to Simplify-Life and Living. Not everything is meant to hurt you this long, cut you this deep. You have to stop bleeding after an extent and breathe free, and then I started channelizing my energy, moderating my responses to outer stimuli and circumstances.
I am guilty of hoarding. I spent a lot on books and diaries. I love writing, and being in moments. My blood turned happy green and blue after I started traveling, and backpacking on weekends.
More to come in subsequent gushes of writing from my table outside the kitchen.
With Hope that you grow connected with yourself, and feel the centredness only to dissipate peace and light.
~Neha
October 5, 2022
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2 年Universally resonating, I believe Smitha Murthy ! What you contain, that only you be able to disburse, And there is a local proverb along the lines- it starts at home , In our dialect, it's pehle ghar diyaa ?? baar {light(v.)} Pher (then) mandir diyaa baar Wish you have a beautiful day ahead????
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2 年Forgiveness is something I have struggled with, Neha. And I realized that it starts with forgiving myself for not wanting to forgive someone/others. Life...