A Sneak Peek at my Daddy Issues

I recently bought my first “real” piece of art…

And while saying "yes" to the investment was initially terrifying, within MINUTES (yes, minutes), it ended up becoming a powerful life lesson and subconscious reprogramming session with myself that ended up paying for itself ??.

The moment I walked into the exhibition, I was mesmerized. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from the layers of black, blue, and gold (all my favorite colors) creating this masterpiece on canvas.

The artist approached me, and started telling me about the painting:

The ancient Roman altar, where fruits, vegetables, and flowers were offered to the gods, which represent opulence.

The animal skull with horns in the middle, a symbol of strength and reverence.

The softness and classic beauty of the face.

I thought to myself, this painting is perfect… except I really wish this was a woman as I wanted a representation of feminine energy.

As if reading my mind, the artist says: “And this is the portrait of a noble woman from the time of imperial Rome.”

“It doesn’t look like a woman,” I said.

“That’s on purpose,” responded the artist. “She’s the perfect balance of feminine and masculine, and the nose here,” she points to the broken nose, “is an ode to the beauty of imperfection.”

Um, okay. Done. I turned to my friend, mouth agape because she knew what I was thinking.

This painting belonged to me.

But... It was large, and I needed to store it in my dad’s apartment in Rome before returning to Bali.

I gingerly texted him a picture of the painting, asking him if we could hang it in the Rome apartment in place of the one that was already hanging, until I’d found my next place.

As I was just about to close the deal with the artist, I get a response from my father.

I quickly glance at it, my stomach drops, and I stutter. I turn to the artist and say… “Um actually, I need to think about it. I’m going to take a walk.”

Total energy shift.

So what happened?

My dad didn’t like the painting. He thought it was cheap-looking and by an incompetent artist.

His opinion had influenced and changed my mind.

Doing the work I do with the subconscious mind, I immediately caught myself being stuck in a pattern.

“My god,” I told my friend, who happened to be a former client who's gone through my coaching process, “I think I just caught myself subconsciously wanting to gain my father’s approval.”

The pattern was evident: I desired something, and because I believed he didn’t agree with my desire, I pulled the plug on it and kept myself from having it. WOW!

“It’s crazy because, as I prepare myself to call in my life partner, the Universe is presenting me with exactly what I need to resolve within myself so that I don’t end up compromising my desires to get approval from a man again.” I shared, as this was big issue that had come up in my last relationship.

Right then and there, I began to run my subconscious reprogramming process (which I teach and take my private clients through) on myself.

You won’t believe what happened next.

I revisited the text from my dad, and it turns out, I HAD COMPLETELY READ IT WRONG!

Because I’d scanned it quickly in Italian and he’d used a word I didn’t understand, I didn’t realize that what he’d actually said was:

“That’s a fine painting. By a prestigious artist.”

And the punchline is that he wasn’t even talking about my painting. He was referring to the one that was currently hanging in the apartment, which he didn’t want to move.

Before that last bit clicked, I caught the immediate relief coursing through my body that he'd approved of my painting, and the little girl inside of me squealing, “It’s okay to buy it now!”

AGAIN, I drew my conscious awareness to this old subconscious pattern and asked the question…

“Do I want to be governed by this?”

As I sat on the stair stoops in the middle of an Italian medieval town next to my friend, who was witnessing the whole reprogramming process, I made the decision that I would not let this pattern govern my decisions any longer.

I asked myself, Do I truly want to buy the painting? And if so, why?

It came down to what it meant to me:

It’s a representation of strength, opulence, and beauty.

Of perfection and imperfection.

Feminine and masculine balance.

(Plus, it’s my brand colors ??)

“Now that I know what I know,” I told my friend, “I must get it. For me.”

And that’s how this gorgeous piece of art, has come to be mine!

From the walls of the Roman parliament to those of my future Bali villa… not a bad upgrade for the painting, if I do say so myself ??.

Not only that, the VALUE of the painting is far beyond what I originally loved about it.

It’s also a reminder to myself that I get to have what I desire, and to beware of allowing other people’s opinions to influence or taint what I know is right for me.

So, all in all... well worth the investment ??.

I share this because of how often we make important decisions that are subconsciously influenced by our past disempowering patterns and beliefs. This, in turn, creates an undesirable reality or worse, decisions that we later on regret.

That’s why it’s so important to be aware of what your biggest disempowering patterns are, and how to catch and break them in real-time when they’re about to steer you in the wrong direction.

This is exactly the process that I teach my clients — and how ironic that the friend who was with me was a former client who knew this so well! — to support them with getting into the driver’s seat of their life, resolving and releasing limiting beliefs that don’t serve them, and making decisions that propel them towards their heart’s desires and soul’s mission.

I won’t lie, this is big work, as it requires you to shift your relationship with life — but I can now do this in minutes after YEARS of practicing and embodying what I teach. And, it will completely transform how you operate (not to mention, benefits that last you for a lifetime.)

If you’re feeling called to create lasting positive change in your life, and finally let go of all of those filters that are keeping you from taking intentional action towards (rather than unconsciously away from) your big goals, then we might need to have a conversation.

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