Scattered Free Thoughts and Reflections, No. 04

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I still watch the news every day... The day has become for me... and maybe for many others, just a series of news... with small breaks in between...

Currently, I can say I've gained new skills: my fingers have become trained at scrolling through social media pages... and I've developed the ability to control myself to react to the provocative toxic announcements I'm coming across... plus the ability to accept the tiniest indicators that show some improvement...

During these effective practices (of scrolling through social media)... I noticed something important... that the #Syrian people want to be "one #people"... but unfortunately... the interpretations of the word "one" seem to differ from person to another... and this is evidence and indication of one of the important points that #reconstruction must focus on... which is the societal and temporal #rifts that were planted through decades of previous #Assad rule... and years of war that increased geographical and spatial separation...

The most important project for social healing is, in my personal (and maybe naive) opinion, bridging between those inside and outside... and opening dialogue between inside and outside... and here I'm not talking about politics or countries... I'm talking about #displaced Syrians outside Syria's borders and the people inside... Syrians were far from engaging in any political work or activism ... people who were subjected to different ways of thinking and opposing viewpoints and understanding of reality on the ground...

The people outside were watching from abroad... living through the torments of #exile and endless news... in a state of #alertness and fear... pinching pennies left and right to send 50 or 100 euros to their families monthly... their phones always charged and eyes on WhatsApp and such... many displaced people lived in a state of #spatiotemporal disorder... (excuse the messy term but I couldn't find another)... meaning living in one place... while your mind is in another... your view of any project carrying future implications is tied to a past that's hard to reach... and a present exhausted by past dreams that had different geography... and now either no longer has land... or has entered a state of #dispersion along many lands...

For those inside... the situation is deeply complex... living in daily silence... dealing with exhausted #infrastructures forgotten for decades that entered a state of #decay during the war's #destruction... constant fear of your neighbor and school friend and even people inside your home as a way of life... feeling betrayed, complicit, and disappointed by people outside... sitting watching... except for longing for companions who either traveled... died... or you don't know where they are and are afraid to inquire... besides that knowledge or education probably no longer leads anywhere... money has no value... the number grows but the value diminishes... and changing from a #tyrant you knew and got used to and knew, despite his #oppression, what was coming... and now there's fear of the unknown... and fear of #hope that has no clear shape or identity yet... conflicted... and yet... the inside is still standing proudly... still #preserving what remains of what remained... and it is the place of #return...

We need #dialogue between inside and outside... to see our #experiences boxed out of their material comparisons, and whose situation is better than whose... we need a human approach... #stories yes simple stories about like the power cutting out mid-series which was a moment of escape from bombing sounds or filled the silence in moments of assault and halt ... or a song by Kazim Al Saher that hurts badly when you hear it in exile... feelings of #loss and #grief and hope and small fears... which are individual human experiences capable of creating societal bridges if shared without looking delegitimising and undervaluing each other...

Listening to each other is not a decision that can be imposed by nations and countries and agencies assuming the surrogate roles... it's an individual decision and internal intention... its goal is that we know each other... accept our simple achievements... our ability to make mistakes... listening to each other helps us #acknowledge each other #forgive ourselves and forgive others... if we want to be one... we must know each other... and we must have curiosity to explore and search and understand each other's origins... not as repetitions of #sectarian and #ethnic narratives... there are dreams and hopes and broken hearts and free thoughts behind every person and facade... and every story is part of this country's #mosaic...

And I'll say again... in my personal opinion... we must be #humble towards the pain of those inside Syria... and their fear... for every individual... and this necessity is especially directed at people who managed to secure a foothold outside...

It should be noted... for those who think that people outside are happy and finding euros hanging on trees... I want to tell you I looked and didn't find them, so guide me if you can...