Road Map to Understanding: What I learned from Death

When I was a kid, I dressed up for a rapture party, Halloween party for Christians, I dressed as Death. I channel shit, so this should be no surprise to any of you. Death was my guardian angel.

Now I can believe that anyone would have a hard time believing me. It sounds crazy, and crazy people don’t know when they sound crazy. They think it’s the most natural thing in the world and don’t understand when others don’t understand.

I’m not crazy, because if I read this at one point, I would say this motherfucker is as crazy as could be.

Now let’s take a look at what I learned from Death.

No one actually dies.

What?

That’s what I said.

Energy is never destroyed it only changes shape. What shape does one turn into when one's time is passed on this Earth?

Could be several. However, what I learned from Death was more about life.

If one could pick one’s death, what would it be and why?

For me the answer was simple and hasn’t changed. I want to be married and when we are done with this world, we have one last sexual encounter that breaks us apart into light and we transcend. I want to go out with a bang, from one life to another. I have no idea about the life to come, I am focused on the here and now.

Now is all that exists, however if we look to the past, we need to only see the coordinates. Everything exists now. If we want to look at a possible future, we just need the coordinates.

We made time up.

Read that again until you stop laughing and realize it’s the truth.

That’s what I learned from Death as a person. Not a human person, an entity person. The Universal Consciousness can create anything or anyone it needs for us. If we want to see God, we will see God.

God is an unimaginable being.

Who thinks they know the mind of God?

We get glimpses, however we never really know what it’s like to be God. How can we think that we know better than God?

That would be arrogance to the point of narcissism.

That thing that Lucifer was supposed to have. Think about it, we are the Devil’s Children. In the Old Testament, God gave Satan rule over the Earth.

This is why demons are so prevalent and almost no one believes in them, which makes possession easy. Get drunk and find out how easy.

The things we do that make possession easy:

Drink

Drugs

Promiscuity

Lie

Hold on to pain

And other stuff.

This is part of what I learned from Death.

I have taken in more demons than I know. When I say “in” I used to be the inescapable vessel. Demons went in and they stayed in. I was doing battle with them all.

What does that look like?

Constantly having to tell myself I’m Ok. Nothing is wrong. I don’t know why I have these thoughts, but I will not act on them. I had personal will power.

As I got older, I changed. Literally changed.

I was born with the right leg shorter than the left one by ? of an inch. My right hip was larger than my left hip. It was noticed by the Air Force and had I not done some quick talking, they weren’t going to let me in.

I had had back injuries galore, including dislocating my ribs. By the time I was 37, I was in pain, on a 1-10 scale of pain, I was at a ten daily, by 38 it was ten from morning till night, and the only peace I got was sleep. Then one day I was out by the mulberry tree outside my apartment, and I screamed from the inside “I’m ready for my new body.”

My pain went to 11 on the right side of my body. It hurt from the top of my head to my fingers and toes. It was the most debilitating pain I had ever taken. There are no words to describe how much it hurt.

However, I walked my son to school every day. When I got home, I was done until it was time to go get him.

I do know how I did it. I detached from my body and let the spirit of another take over.

I was the inescapable vessel for demons, meaning they wanted no part of me. However, Angels, Fae, Djinn, other entities took a shot.

As I said my pain was unbearable, however I took it. What choice did I have?

After a year or so, I went to see a Bowen Therapist. What they do is one part Reiki, one part nerve adjustment, one part I don’t know. What she had done as she told me, she had turned the key to the locks I set. When I walked in, I had a slight limp. When I walked out, I had two legs that were the same length for the first time in my life.

My skeleton has become symmetrical.

As she explained, I had set the locks on my body and all she did was turn the keys. I had taken from my larger hip and extended my leg. It was something anyone could do once you understand you can.

What was it, that cry from inside?

How did I know what would happen?

Think higher self. That piece of God that is responsible for watching you.

My higher self knew everything.

Think about what limits one puts on oneself, and do you put those limits on God?

Most of us don’t even think in those terms.

Think in those terms.