The road to finding your passion is ...curved and feels like a ??

I had this article in draft for many weeks, but recent post from Fraser here made me think it's maybe a good time to post it...

Many so called "lifestyle coaches" in their sprouting time in Slovakia 10 years go repeated as a mantra: To find your true passion you need to remember what you wanted to become, when you were a child.

It is annoying question especially when you have parents like mine, who were born with clear love for what they did as professionals, didn't have doubts about their career choices at all and they excelled in their fields... thanks mum and dad.

I don't remember what I wanted to become. No memories about me wanting to work ??until maybe when I was 10 years old, when I wanted to become a lawyer, but that was triggered by some outside circumstances, I am glad I didn't become one. Then I wanted to become a doctor. Later when I supposed to go to university, I wanted to become geneticist. During my final year before university studies, my biology teacher lent me the book containing genetic defects of children. I cried over some images but I looked through it all. I didn't become geneticist, because I discovered at the university, that simply I am not the scientist who would be able to be closed behind the lab doors for days mostly alone to find out some tiny little detail. Still love science and Huberman lab and I get the most satisfaction to help people with rare diseases like CMTC-OVM or some others. How do I help ? Connecting and communicating...

I digress, back to the childhood "dream". I wondered what am I suppose to do? Where can I wear suits and have a pretty manicure? What is the RIGHT thing for me ?

When I went to UK, I wrote mass mails to my family and friends. I described how my days went, what did I experienced. People laughed .. They wanted me to write more. I stopped. I wanted to have a blog, but I was like ... eeeh. Who would read it, what would it be about ? Who the hell would be interested in my random stories ? I was embarrassed mostly, that people would see my true self. Even people I don't know would read "my life".

Then I was again on this "life changing" coaching with the mantra: If you want to find your true passion, find out what you did want to be, when you were a child. This time around I met the teacher who thought me as a 10 years old. Maybe she would remember something. I asked her and she told me, that she doesn't remember anything particular that I would mention, but that I was very good at writing. I was like huh ? Weird .. ok, thank you. And I did nothing .. for another 8 years or so, until this blog ...Who knows what that will bring. Does this feel like I found my true passion ? We shall see. So far it looks like finding THE ONE ultimate partner.. you don't .. you make it.

I am very good in my current job which pays my bills .. I enjoy it, I have excellent colleagues around me... and on top of that I write you here every week being a little bit anxious that someone may roast me for my opinions.

I hesitated to post today, bit because I am spiritual being and believe in signs THIS was the tipping point to post today's article. Hope you smiled a bit.

Do you feel like you do the work which is your passion ?

P.S. I am probably still not brave and vulnerable enough, since I chose to write in English and not in Slovak .. I'd be possibly more authentic in my native language ? Maybe ??