Reflections of a Work at Home Mom #Vol. 7

It’s hard to look deep into yourself and see what goes on inside. But it helps make progress in all spheres of life.?

Sunday, March 20th?

When I was younger, I used to always feel the Sunday blues.?

Now, when I’m older and (hopefully) wiser, I kinda think it was more subjective than I wanted to believe. And it so happens that today spring starts…so I guess that winter depression will turn into spring depression now?

Monday, March 21st?

Another Monday means another opportunity to start the week fresh and ready. At least that’s what I think it would be. In reality, it’s me getting up at 5 and trying to squeeze in some quality work before the kids get up and start hurricaining around the house.?

I’m having mixed feelings about spring. I’m thrilled we’ll finally enjoy some nice weather.

I also feel anxious because I know I won’t be able to enjoy every moment of every day outside.?

Tuesday, March 22nd

When we stick to our daily routines, things are so much easier. Little O is particularly doing well with routines – and when she does, I find it much easier to push through the day without being stressed about little things.

• I prefer to have some uninterrupted work early in the morning.?

I’m stressed when I don’t.

• I’m calm when my kids have breakfast in the morning.

We are all tenser when they don’t.?

• I hope to get Little O to sleep while Big O is at school.?

I’m edgy when it doesn’t go according to plan.?

• I like to have a home-cooked meal whenever possible.?

I’m disappointed when I can’t do it all.?

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I often wonder why I am the way that I am.?

Why do I have to be so harsh on myself, in life, and at work??

Wednesday, March 23rd

My two meetings got canceled today. My sister was supposed to take care of Little O and pick up Big O while I was in meetings but instead, we took them outside for a bit.?

The day was sunny.

We met Big O’s Egyptian friend from school with her mom. It was nice to see them try and talk in English all the time. Her mother and I also spoke in English the whole time. It was exciting to practice speaking English. I felt like someone tied up my tongue, everything I said sounded broken, fragmented.

It amazes me how quickly we forget languages if we don't use them actively.

Thursday, March 24th?

Some days fly by and others don’t. I hate it when I don’t get a chance to write during the week, it’s sometimes impossible to remember all the little things we go through every day.?

I used to write things down, make to-do lists…. I wonder how long would it take to complete one whole planner now? A week? Ten days??

Friday, March 25th?

This week has really flown by! When that happens, I rarely get the chance to tune in with my thoughts, to reflect, to reevaluate.?

I have to admit, I don’t like not being in control but I’ve learned to let go when necessary. Still, I feel like I have a long way to go before I get where I want to be, mentally.

Baby steps.

Saturday, March 26th?

You know how some families play board games or eat dinner together?

Well, we get up at 6 on Saturdays. I guess that’s our thing now.?

I had a core-shaking conversation with my HR manager this morning. It’s amazing what 60 minutes of honest talk can do to a person. I’m truly grateful for this opportunity. I’ve managed to uncover some things about myself and I’m looking forward to our next steps.?

We spent a big part of the day outside, enjoying the sun. The kids played in the sand – it’s all over their clothes and hair. Love it.

Bath time will be FUN. If they make it.?

In bed, before 8 is also our thing, yes. Can we be more conventional??

Yours truly,?

Work at Home Mom