Reflections of a Work at Home Mom #Vol. 6

To make progress and be happy, we need to be on the same page, in every sphere of life.

Sunday, March 13th?

I am with the kids the whole day again. M has got some things to do over the weekend. Sometimes it’s easier when we spend weekends together, the kids love to spend quality time with us and so do we.?

When one of us has other things to do, everyone is more nervous, less willing to cooperate, and more likely to fight.?

Monday, March 14th?

Here we go again, Monday! I’ve noticed that I do extraordinarily great on Mondays. Everything goes according to plan, the kids are (mostly) a dream, work is as easy as can be, I even have time to cook some nice lunch.

When Monday starts nice, I already know the rest of the week is going to be a disaster.?Prove me wrong Monday!

Work is going well, doing something different, more creative. Let’s see if I’m up for it.?

Tuesday, March 15th

The house is a cleaning nightmare. I feel like we’re gonna suffocate in toys. Or even worse, be attacked by them in the middle of the night. A zombie toy apocalypse.?

M will take the kids outside after work so I can get started on the mess, the dishes, the chaos. I KNOW THE HOUSE WILL BE A MESS AT LEAST FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS but I can’t take it. Trying to be cool about it but then I snap at someone for a stupid little thing.?

So far not so good, Monday.

Wednesday, March 16th

A silver lining of a day.?Things (mostly) go according to plan today. But I realize I need another 24 hours in my day to do all the things I want to do.?

I have so many books to read, so much work to do, that I feel like I will never be able to get on top of things.?Aaaah, patience, patience.

Thursday, March 17th

I’m forever grateful for M. As I listen to discouraging stories about other couples and their marriages, I realize how important it is for spouses to be on the same page and have the same vision of what their life should be like.

Taking Big O to a birthday party today. Sometimes my head hurts from all the questions she asks and especially when I don’t know or have to modify the answers. This is a bad day for the INFJ in me.?Please, hold on, it will be over soon.?

Friday, March 18th?

The other day we saw a dead pigeon on the ground. I had to tell them he was asleep because how do you explain to your toddlers what DEATH means? Not sure if I grasp the entire concept myself.?I sure haven't made peace with the fact I'm going to die at some point. Thinking about it almost always ends in a panic attack.

Getting in turbo mode at work, there are a lot of technical things to do. I'm feeling like a machine sometimes.?

Saturday, March 19th?

I'm genuinely confused about why people get married just for (fill in the blank) and then lead these miserable lives, staying together just for (fill in the blank).?

I feel lucky to be in a loving relationship. But I often feel privileged because of that, too. Ugh, I'm overthinking it again, am I??

This hasn't been a complete disaster of a week after all. Not bad Monday, not bad.?

Yours truly,?

Work at Home Mom