Reflections of a Work at Home Mom #Vol. 5

If we never get out of our comfort zones, we won’t be able to grow and become better versions of ourselves.?

Sunday, March 6th?

I love how M takes care of me. He offered to go and change the battery on my watch so I can take it with me on the trip. It’s the little things we do for each other I love the most. And just because we don’t get a chance to do them often, they seem more like grand gestures.

I had a blast with friends last night. We all agreed that there’s nothing glamorous about the crowdedness, the smoke, and all the pushing around.?

But it feels nice to have some time for myself and spend it with teammates. Hope M is not having a hard time with Double O at home.?

Monday, March 7th?

Working from the office today! OKAY. I can do this.?

It’s not as weird as I thought it would be, my imposter syndrome is in sleep mode. I even got recognized! And it’s great to get a taste of the other side and see the regulars at the office.?

So, tonight we get to meet other colleagues and commemorate International Women’s Day. The night seems promising and we get to hang out in a casual setting for a bit. I’m SO happy to see some of my people tonight, really missed them!?

Tuesday, March 8th

Happy International Women’s Day!?

I’m back on the road today but will do my best to squeeze in some work on my 5-hour trip back home.?

And I’ve optimistically applied for a free webinar to listen to while on the bus. Let’s see how that goes. BUT, J and I won a free email course on collaboration on LinkedIn which is so great! Looking forward to it already.?

Unfortunately, work would have to wait until I get back to my home office. How can anyone work on a bus?! But, on the bright side, I’ve had enough time to reflect and get back to the work-from-home mom mindset. Or have I?

Wednesday, March 9th

M is at home for the day, THANK YOU UNIVERSE. Not sure I would be able to work and take care of two sick kids immediately. Huh.?

I guess I’m still at the office mentally. This transition might be a bit harder than I’ve expected. And Double O aren’t making things easier for me. Why would they? Love them for pushing me to do better every single day but it frustrates me that I can't do better on some days.

Thursday, March 10th

I’ll be changing my work “environment” for a bit at work. I’m trying to test my limits and knowledge by getting outside of my comfort zone. And I’ll have A as support, too.?

Now that the kids are a bit older, I can get back to learning more about what I’m interested in. And it’s amazing that I can access a lot of great content online and connect with experts from various fields without stepping outside of my house – bonus points if all these webinars and workshops are for free!?

I’ve always been such a nerd.?

Friday, March 11th?

It’s already Friday?!

Let’s just get this day over with and go to sleep. I’m finishing one assignment and taking another, more challenging one. I hope it goes well!

Big O is eager to go back to her English kindergarten. She says that she misses her friends and that she wants to play with them. And then Little O does something to annoy her and they fight. Are you kidding me?

Today of all days I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing with them. I wish I could give them more, but at this point, it’s beyond impossible. I hope you can forgive me one day, my babies.?

I know it’s Friday, but Fridays are made for late-night talks. I’m so grateful for having great people at work. All those who talked with me tonight (I hope you recognize yourselves), thank you for reminding me there’s still ultimate goodness in people.?

Saturday, March 12th?

Today is the kind of day when I would hardly get out of bed. Luckily, it's Saturday…?

I'm looking forward to the Sunday blues tomorrow.?

Yours truly,?

Work at Home Mom

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This week has been extraordinarily social for me. And while I enjoyed it all so much, ot was hard for me to disrupt my routine and then just go back to it.?

I know other moms feel the same, especially if their kids are still so young. The shame, the guilt, the fear, the constant overthinking…. Why do we still do this to ourselves? Our kids overcome their separation anxiety at some point, but will we??