Realizing My Job Is Not Really THE WORK

I spent more than a decade giving my all to my job, literally my all.?

My job not only defined my identity, it also defined my worthiness and it was the only place where I was seeking growth and fulfillment.

Even when I wasn’t working or when I was at home, my mind was still with my job. It never ended!?

I was OBSESSED and completely out of balance.?

Let me be real… my entire life was about my job. It consumed everything and every part of me!?

The worst part is that the more I gave and the harder I worked, somehow the emptier I felt.?

But I was caught up in a never-ending rat race and didn’t realize.

I was chasing more and more, bigger and bigger things and when I would get or achieve them, I would feel happy for a fleeting moment…?

After short days, weeks or months, I would be back in the rat race, chasing a bigger cheese.

It. Never. Ended!??

Can anyone resonate?

It has taken a huge health scare plus five years of deep inner work to have the big ah-ha that I wanted to share today…

THE REAL WORK (with capital letters) that we are here to do is actually NOT about “work” (with lower case letters)

We somehow learned that our jobs should be our main source of growth and fulfillment.?

We learned to work harder at our jobs in order to “get” more of what we want.?

But deep down what do we really want?

We think if we have the bigger title or more money or a successful career then finally, we will be more content, happy, joyful, free, abundant, fulfilled … it always feels conditional and elusive.

But when we do get the bigger title or more money or whatever that goal was, do we actually feel these things we have been desiring all along? Not really… at least not for long anyway.

Have you ever wondered why that is??

Here is what I have learned…?

I have learned that all that we have been deeply desiring cannot come from our jobs or from anything outside of us.

All we have been chasing can only be truly found in one place… inside each of us!

So, my big ah-ha was that MY TRUE WORK… THE WORK I am here (and think we all are) here to focus on is our INNER WORK!?

When we focus on our INNER WORK, then we can actually experience inner growth, inner peace, inner happiness, inner freedom, inner abundance and inner fulfillment.?

OK, since I have been embracing being truly vulnerable and transparent, I will use words that we often don’t feel comfortable using in professional or work conversations…

When I say I am focusing on my inner work, what I really mean to say is that I am focusing on my spiritual growth.?

Since I had this realization, my relationship with my job completely transformed…?

My job was no longer the source of my true growth or fulfillment any longer… my job actually became the biggest playground I have to practice and go deeper in my inner work, my spiritual growth.?

Every day things happen at work that show me where to focus my inner work on.?

Here is how it works…?

First, I get triggered somehow (let’s be real that actually happens quite often lol)?

Then I practice being mindful and conscious of what is coming up within me…?

I pause to notice the feelings…?

Then I dig deeper to understand what’s underneath…?

The inner work then is to heal, shift, transform or transmute whatever is coming up.

Let me be clear, even though my relationship with my job has completely changed, I still do a great job at work!?

In fact, I may even dare to say that I do a much better job at work because I am much more my true self.?

Without a doubt, once I changed my focus to my inner work as my true source for growth, my actual career really took off – and I don’t think that was a coincidence.?

By focusing on my inner work, I am now beginning to remember who I really am and why I am here.?

With this remembrance, I can actually now focus on my real work, my mission, my purpose here and I feel so excited and grateful with all that is unfolding.??

Transparently, myself 10 years ago wouldn’t have read an article like this or been open to the ideas here lol…?

So, I am writing this article today fully understanding that this is not for everyone. I get it.

But myself 5 or 3 years ago would have really appreciated hearing that the calling for change she is feeling inside will guide her towards the most transformative journey of her life.

My hope is that I am writing this for anyone who may also be in similar paths. My intention is to be of the highest support in your own inner work … keep going and trust the calling inside!?

With so much love, Tatiana?