RADAR AT LAST TUNED INTO SOME SEMBLANCE OF REALITY

At last i think I'm finally getting the hang of it. I no longer think within that box of how and what i as black man should be doing and saying. Being a man a normal human being somehow got lost along the way. But i do believe we all have a path in life that we go through, and should come out at the end much wiser for our experiences. Its funny how age and time not only transform's you physically and mentally, but would seem to guide you towards who you are deep down. Not really destiny because along your road or path. I do believe we make choices conscious or otherwise, good or bad.

From the book above which i wrote and was published in 1987 its been a long road of self discovery pain and heartache some joy but mostly. Being alert on my guard always aware. Waiting for the next confrontation. Forever in anticipation of that inevitability that could and would lead me down that dark road to prison or death. You see i had chosen a path that although thrust upon me i readily embraced. Spending much of my life in care i came out to the streets and an awareness that i was black and different. And there were many like me in the 70s lost in a world not of our making. And that was the path that my life at the time took. At the time it seemed inevitable that was the path i should follow. That of being a victim of circumstance that of being black in a white society. And rebellion being the order of the day.

With no real family or guidance and not much knowledge of love of self, warmth and belonging. I took off with many such as myself into the dark murky world of fighting a system, and a society. And felt justified. We armed ourselves with blinkers, to much that was positive, and were quick to accentuate the negative.

Much of this was down to what i term my RADAR, see (Attributes SDM). I will never be ashamed of my rebelliousness or my incarceration. I know people such as myself are part of history and have made a difference. Even if its just the mere fact that our comments and behaviour and attitudes need to be understood in the context of fitting into society.

On reflection of course my path could have been different. Such as education or vocational work and training.

Yet with a greater understanding of the Social Deprivation Mindset (SDM). Not everything is black and white. And as much as i lambasted white society it is only fair and right that our short comings too are exposed. I guess what i am really saying is that. Its time we as black people started standing up and taking responsibility instead of it always being someone else's fault. We have come a long way. This country has a wonderful education system. And most white people are not inherently racist as far as i can see. In fact i do believe that much of white society the people, are in fact quite tolerant towards others. We don't have to have a love fest but i do see good will. And i no longer need to be on a 24/7 lookout for real or imaginary foes because i live in a white society.

Things are changing, there is no doubt about that. And i am glad that my RADAR is at last tuned into some semblance of reality.? Trevor Hercules.

SOCIAL DEPRIVATION MINDSET