Peace of vulnerability and resilience..

I had a fall.

Went flying down 14 steps of the stairs.

Twisted my ankle big time (and the first time in life!)

Fingers of left hand that was 'trying' to stop the fall twisted too.

For a good 2-3 minutes I felt disoriented, lightheaded, shocked, puzzled.

I was not able to comprehend what just happened and to be honest, as I type this, I am giggling about it, just a little.

BECAUSE FATHER F..NG PAIN IS UNBEARABLE (8TH HOUR AND COUNTING).

I have never experienced a fall like this before .. or what could qualify as a fall.

I had never experienced being so puzzled, disoriented, and being able to HEAR my blood pumping.

I had never experienced screaming out so loud in pain that several neighbors came out running from their homes.

Thanks to some awesome parenting, I am not embarrassed about being seen the way I was found.

Accidents happen. It is life.

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I know, I know, you are waiting for 'the moral of the story' or a 'sales pitch' at the end of a long social media post.

No 6 figure income messages here, (yes you can sigh with relief!)

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But there is also one other thing happened with this fall that has never happened to me before.

The pain, the embarrassment (that I did not feel) and the shock did not win. Stay with me ... if you will.

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In the past an incident like this would have broken my morale.

I would have been panicking about how will I continue my work, what will I tell clients, how will they take it?

I would have been upset that on top of multiple existing health challenges, I now must deal with excruciating, disabling, blinding pain and that I am now worthless to people until I recover and heal.

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And I have an extremely poor pain tolerance so I would have been sobbing, giving up and be angry at myself.

My entire focus would have been 'what did I do wrong to end up like this and how it is all my fault and why me?'

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Not today, or tomorrow (when it is going to hurt 20 times more) because time, life and experience has taught me one thing

MY MIND CAN DECIDE HOW I HANDLE ANY SETBACK - PHYSICAL, MENTAL, SOCIAL, FINANCIAL OR OTHERWISE.

I am clear about my INTENTION.

I am clear about my determination.

And I have built enough emotional and physical resilience to fight this without being sad and demotivated.

Of course, I am in pain, I might complain and moan next few days.

I might also post pain/healing updates that 98.79% of people reading this has no interest in.

But I am clear in my mind about not pretending to be OKAY or a HERO as well as not letting pain define how I manage it all.

I will do what is needed medically.

I will do what is needed to reduce the impact and chances for this getting worse.

But I will also keep doing what I can within safe limits to stay focused on things that inspire me, cheer me up.

I will remain INTENTIONAL about being positive, strong, and grateful, while still not being afraid to be vulnerable.

I will say NO where I must. I will say YES where I can and want to.

Most importantly, I will focus on my joy as well as my healing.

Because it is all about mind over matter.

But more importantly it is about acceptance of what happened, what I should do and not do

and about inner peace with the pain, the discomfort, and the challenge.

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And for those who were expecting or wondering, there is no sales or call to action or pitch in my message.

I am just sharing the emotional growth that today enables me to share it all, without shame, and without being weak at the same time. It is OKAY to be down for the count. It is about not letting the trip wires of your life denting your morale.

It is OKAY to be vulnerable. It is OKAY to still be resilient.

and it is all about being INTENTIONAL in your life!

xoyox - Szebastian

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