(Peace) Tea breaks run long

It has been 5 months...since I published the last volume of #TforToday. I have mixed feelings but mostly I'm at peace.

I love writing but I also love taking a break. I wish this break was shorter but I recently accepted a few ultimatums and this is one of them- everything has its own time. It actually doesn't need to be #everythingeverywhereallatonce.

During my recent trip to Canada & NYC, I found myself chasing a bucket list of things I wanted to do and while the journey was enjoyable, I realized how much the pace & the peace mattered to me.

Last month was my birthday month & I always do one thing I always really wanted to always do on my birthday, and it always almost involves travel. While this birthday was no different- I wanted a birthday picnic in Central Park under the cherry blossoms with my best friend- and I found it- it made me so happy to just live, enjoy the sunshine and not chase a lot of wants at the same time.

The last decade of my life has been filled with me feeling like I'm running after my dreams, #YOLO, and trying my best to do everything I want to do really well.

A lot of this time period has left me tired, disappointed, or short-changed but A LOT of it has made me feel fulfilled and reeling for more. That's the beauty of life, right? You get the cons with the pros, it's all about which pros matter more than the other.

This reel by Anna Kai (who's one of my favorite dating coaches? on IG) made me realize that I'm not just my ambition and that life is happening right now & it's not a relay race between your next challenge.

This birthday I realized I knew what I wanted but I didn't want to rush. This year will be all kinds of checklists but also it will be a lot of checking in with me, not judging my own feelings, and acknowledging that while the to-do list might never end, my life is happening right now so I might as well enjoy the process. So did you forget to smell the roses, or did you also stop to enjoy the cherry blossom season? ??