Peace, Healing & Happiness

Most of you have been a part of my journey, both good and bad. Some probably skimmed by my posts, unfollowed me, and/or ignored them altogether. I may have come a crossed as perceived boastful or pompous in some people's ways of thinking, as it relates to my Patents, my self worth in Love, and to whom I surround myself with today.

The truth is, I didn't have much confidence growing up as a child. I lost a 6mth (Yellow Fever) brother at 5yrs, and lived a life of drugs and alcohol that tormented my Mom as a child, and in my own upbringings as well, as a huge result of losing my brother. I always swore I would never do that to my own kids, and to this day have never fallen down that path, and never will. Other truth is, because I didn't understand how to live in the now, I had deep fears of abandonment, due to a father leaving me at birth, and a mother at times too, as a result of her own internal battles. Being a child myself, I didn't understand how to help her heal to make things easier, and even as an adult too though. You see I never understood what I understand now. Baseball and Basketball was my only escape from the realities of life and in some ways was my own personal sanctuaries. When I became an adult, it was immersing my self worth in IT too, because I was good at it and it gave me the confidence that I lacked growing up. All due in part, because I simply never wanted to fall down this deep road that plagued my family tree, and because my kids deserved better.

Most would consider me damaged in my old ways of thinking, because to be honest, that's what I thought of myself. All of which was totally and utterly false. Truth is, we all have some form of damage or baggage as they say in our career decisions and in life. It's what we convince our minds of ourselves is what convinces the outcomes though. I didn't have control over some things as a child and other people's internal battles, but I did have control over my own mind and confidence in my own self worth and in what I deserved. My US Patents are a good example. I saw one day I'd retrieve them, and see more as a result today too. I knew I had to market them, in order to move them past the larger market that I alone can't take on by my lonesome self. I realized, because of learning experiences in my fears, that I can't tight grip them all to myself, while thinking that everyone is trying to take advantage of me, because of my perception in the greed of money. Truth is I needed communal support, collaboration and investment help, if I was to disrupt the global market in a way where everyone wins. All of which meant sharing it with other folks for the greater good of the market. Therefore, I shouldn't have allowed my own fears of that greed of money, being taken advantage of, and even fears of sabotage controlling the outcomes the way they have and did. That is on me and have learned from it immensely as a result.

I don't say all this to play the victim, nor to garner attention. I say all this, because you see, both good and bad, my visions played a role in my all my outcomes that I didn't truly realize the way I do today. All of which healing, understanding, mindfulness and most importantly, happiness has laid out the seamless path to what's important. This is something that I too want for you as well, so you don't fall into the same pitfalls that I've fell into along the way. To get there, it took allot of deep inner healing, self reflection, meditation, prayer and big time growth from within, as well as the Lord grace laid upon me and my kids too. Today I'm making the continuous effort to live in the now and/or present moment and allow fate to take its course where it may. Again, I say all this for you all to understand that, your past shouldn't be allowed to define who you are today, nor hinder you from what you and/or your family deserve, but rather should lay out the roadmap to the greatest blessing in life that make you unbelievably happy well into your golden years. Because in my life, happiness is what's most important for me, so that my kids benefit most.?

Much Love & Blessings All! I LOVE EACH & EVERY ONE OF YOU!

Stay safe, healthy and blessed,

Xavier