[Part 2] I Pooped All Over Myself ??

**This newsletter is part of a series sharing my experience of my recent Ayahuasca healing journey in Peru. To read Part 1, ?click here .**

After the first few days with Maestra Mathilde and her shamanic family, I was ready for the second ceremony.?

So much was revealed to me in my first ceremony and I was ready to work with my next intention. I was journaling nonstop, which was helping me integrate.?

Day Two of Ceremony

On the evening of the second ceremony, I set my intention for Mother Aya to teach me what I need to do to bring my business to abundance, and help me heal what is blocking me in achieving this.?

When I came to the maestra prepared to drink the medicine, her daughter Sara said to me in a super intense tone: concéntrate! (Focus!).

I asked her, "En mi intención? (On my intention?)”,?and she replied, "el bloqueo (the block).”?

Her energy was so intense and focused, like she was directing a soldier, that I became hyper-focused on my mission. I knew they were in it with me when singing the Icaros to activate the medicine in my body.

I went back to my bed and lay there repeating my intention, yet I added an SOS to Aya and begged her to do anything necessary to help me get past the block tonight.

On the first night of ceremonies, the block came up inside me, and I stopped hearing the wisdom from Mother Aya. She was speaking it, and I could not let it in to receive it. Matilde reassured me that they will help me break free.?

I leaned into the trust that they were holding sacred space for me, and I told Aya to do whatever it takes to help me release my block... and now. That I couldn't go on with this block in me anymore and I needed her help. It had to happen tonight.

What came after was ‘whatever it takes!’?

I laid in my bed, and Mother Aya was showing me and teaching me what to do with things that I needed to shift. My eyes were closed, and I was in divine soft and loving energy. I was getting beautiful downloads of wisdom.

Then, I suddenly felt that I had to go to the washroom to poop. It couldn't wait a second.?

I opened my eyes, jumped out of bed, and started walking quickly towards the door. It was hard to walk with the medicine in me, and my head started spinning, feeling sick.

I leaned on the door and closed my eyes, suddenly I was back with Aya and she was teaching me more wisdom.?

I was paying attention to her wisdom and insights, and then I remembered that I was on my way to the washroom and could not hold it in anymore…

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