Overcoming My Demon

Friends often ask me what upcoming event I am training for. My answer, I train for life. I struggled for 12 years with bulimia, a serious eating disorder. It has been over five years since my last episode.

Bulimia is a path that leads to self-destruction. Actually, all forms of addiction are. I couldn’t face this giant, because I really didn’t want to. It wasn’t until I lost everything that had meaning in my life that I had to face my Goliath. I felt so ashamed, and because of that I couldn’t turn to the one who has delivered me before. God. I had no strength, no will, but I tried to go at it alone. Defeat after defeat.

Sometimes the hardest thing you'll face in life is not the giant standing against you, but trusting God, that it's His battle.

When I finally asked God to help, He didn’t show up in a miraculous way like we depict in our animation series. I wasn’t healed over night. He showed up through the people who have supported me on this journey. To heal me, God didn’t take the broken pieces and put them back together. He started over.

I now know what it looks like on the other side of my situation. I have come out of my valley. Sure, there will be more challenges and tests along the way, but I will look back to this as my reassurance of His faithfulness.

It doesn’t matter what you are facing today. It doesn’t matter what you have done. Even if you have never spoken to God or believed in Him, give Him a chance. You have more to gain than to loose.