Out Of Your Shell

I come to you in this moment, not as a teacher or a master or a guru but as a human being wanting to connect, be open, be radical, be wild, be a mess, be intimate, to share my fear, sadness, anger and joy with what is. I want to explore;

What is possible for me as an individual within connection and community?

What is possible for humanity?

How can we come together as one? To love and appreciate one another?

How can we re-discover our magic?

I come here now to meet you and share with you the journey I am currently embarking on and invite you to join me.

I feel fear that humanity is so detached from itself that no one knows who they are anymore, no one knows how to feel, how to really be compassionate, intimate, to connect with themselves’ s, let alone with others.

I feel fear that humanity particularly in western culture is destroying itself and even worse destroying the magic that is within each one of us, the focus being: to get people to do too much without thinking or feeling, numbing people into a “Constructed for them life process”.

This numbed constructed life process starts when we are children: don’t be scared that’s weak, don’t be angry that’s crazy, don’t cry you need to be strong, don’t have too much fun someone will get hurt. The result – numbness. A melancholy and a dependency start building, we need to be told what to do and what is appropriate to feel and when. Does that resonate with you?

At school this constructed life process is built upon even more and not only are we trained not to feel but we are trained not to think non-laterally, linear thinking only!

There is a hierarchy, and their rules are not to be questioned and must be regurgitated. From school we are supposed to go to university, you can’t get a job otherwise and jobs are what we have been striving towards since we started school at 5 years old. We are told to earn money to be successful, no wait, we need to earn money to survive. Wait! It’s both! Double pressure and more focus required, detaching us even more. Then we are told we must spend all that money giving it back to governments and banks for mortgages and cars, holidays, and pensions. What a life! I feel fear to say this at the risk of offending people’s belief systems and rocking their stability in that, but I will say it anyway, without apology – I smell bullshit! This is not life or living to me.

There is something deep inside of me that tells me there is more, there is a pulling in my chest, butterflies in my stomach and a strong urge to run away from this so-called life. I followed that impulse, and my life has become open, wild, risky, dangerous even, and yet I feel so alive. I now live in another country, know another language, have friends from literally all over the world, I have experienced other cultures, new ways of living. I have connections with people that have a depth that words cannot describe and within those connections a freedom to be alone, explore on my own that take me to new levels of finding out who I really am. I hear the whispers of the tress, feel the unconditional love and freedom of the animals, the warmth of the sun, the nourishment of fresh food. I am taking risks by going into my fear, not running away from it. Sometimes there is something from the past that needs healing, sometimes there is an impulse or a sense that I need to go somewhere or do something, or not go somewhere or not do something. Whatever that is,

I am following it and I am discovering that I have my own authority and that my life is infinitely better than it was when I followed the old rules of “the numbed life process”.

And do you know what? I still have money, I still have a house, a car.

Holidays!!! Life is a holiday!

Pension? Retirement? Those concepts do not even exist to me anymore.

You can live for yourself, outside of our planned, ready-made box. It is possible and fear is a big key.

What would be possible for humanity if we were connected to our non-material value? Non-material value being our wisdom, our experiences, our connection to our true feelings and being able to distinguish between emotions and feelings. To heal emotions and feel feelings and gather the gold, the magic that comes from that.

I am currently discovering that our conscious fear is not the stiffness that paralyses us or makes us run away or hide from our reality and create fantasy worlds or excuses to not do things. Conscious fear is our aliveness, our sensing, our creativity, our connection to source, to our being, that is us, that is our magic, our potential, our possibilities.

I feel fear that I am sharing such audacious and unreasonable possibilities with you. I feel fear that you will reject me and tell me I am crazy and unrealistic. I am sharing it anyway because I feel fear and I want to follow that signal of fear, I feel anger that I am not putting into action my experiences and holding space, making connections with you, and with humanity to make these explorations and discoveries for ourselves and together. My anger helps me to bring into reality the possibilities of what we can experience, how we can connect, to have intimacy, aliveness and that action comes through our conscious fear.

I have a proposal for you, for you and me. I can’t and don’t want to do this alone, it’s pointless for me to do this alone! What good is it if I am in this space and no one else is?

Because of my fear, I have made an agreement with myself to create a work talk around fear and explore as a collective, how it can work? what does it look like? how does that go…

If any of this has touched you and you feel a slight reaction to any part of this message then join me, with your fear!

Where: Facebook Event: https://www.facebook.com/groups/beyouunlimited/?ref=share

When: February 19th, 2024, 18.30 – 20.30 GMT

Cost: Free