If Only I Could Turn the Clocks Back to Fix My Mistake...

If Only I Could Turn the Clocks Back to Fix My Mistake...

I wish I could go back and change things, being bullied on the bus going to school. Just to tell my younger self that he is valued and he matters. I wish I could turn back the clock and tell the young boy he is loved and his feelings matter.?

“ Don’t be afraid of your anger”

“ Your mom loves you and wants the best for you. Believe her, not your dad “?

“Remember to be slow to trust, not everyone wants the best for you”?

“Drugs won't help fill the hole in your chest”?

“You’re not a burden”?

“Your imagination is your #1 advantage and embrace it, don’t be ashamed of it”?

“People will take advantage of you BECAUSE you care & love deeply”?

“It’s ok to not be ok, but don’t live there”

Turning the clock back is impossible, but it’s never too late to embrace the truths you avoided to embrace or shunned as a kid. It took every ounce of strength to get past feeling like I was never good enough and to embrace my kingship as a man. It took many days of working through where my value is and how important I was to the world.?

I always thought to myself when I was younger…

How do I define who I am and how valuable I am to the world??

What value do I actually bring to the world without being a burden??

These thoughts never leave, but how do I handle them??

How do I fight back against the thoughts in my mind?

They plague me, and they’re painful!

How can I be better??

How can I do better?

…. How can I please my daddy??

I want him to love me…

… how? … why won’t he love me??

These thoughts are common among fellow men I know and who have been mentors and father figures to me in my life. I used to believe the thoughts for so long, and I would still be in those ways of thinking at 30 if it weren’t for the men who stepped up and obeyed the leading in their hearts to pour into me, encourage, affirm and correct me.?

It took a long time for me to trust them, because I had been scarred so much growing up, but through this process - I began to understand what a father, a man, a brother, a good husband, good mentor, and good father figure looked like and felt like. It took many men in and out of my life who cared to show me how to protect myself emotionally, mentally, and remain wise in times of pressure and challenges to overcome and do better.?

It took them seeing in me what I didn’t begin to understand, in order for me to notice and make sense of how I am hard wired. Although I couldn’t turn back time, I am a product of those who are doing what I am doing for you today.?

You are not alone. You know this, but it’s time to actually believe you’re not alone.?

You have those around you who do care, however, it’s ok to give them small opportunities to prove themselves and to earn your trust. It’s impossible to turn the clock back, however, it’s never too late to start now with what you know now.?

With every decision we make is a new version of us so with every decision lays power of life or death you will give yourself.?

Know this…

No matter what someone says about you, only what YOU believe will impact how you see yourself.?

So stand in LIFE today and let me know if I can be of support.