NOW, CAN YOU HEAR ME?

VOICELESS - WRITING - AUDIO - VIDEO

Life truly happens, and until it starts throwing different shades at you, only then can you be certain of how alive you are.

We all go through different experiences at every passing stage of our lives. Some will mar us and some will make us. But the good thing about life's lessons is that whatever the outcome would be is entirely up to the main character. It's up to each and every one of us to decide whether we will be made or marred by the different experiences we are passing through.

The dream of every young girl in a Christian home is to be at least in the church choir. We all anticipated that position when we were young, but sadly, I didn't get to enjoy being in the choir for so many reasons. I wasn't kicked out of the choir, who would dare, there weren't enough children in the first place, so letting go of one would be disastrous. But sadly, I had to shamefully leave, I mean, you can't keep murdering beautiful songs and expect to survive as well. I just brutalized those melodies with my voice according to people, even though I had no idea that was what I was doing. I wasn't getting the keys no matter how hard I tried. I just had to take the bold step to stop trying to force myself to be where I clearly don't belong.

Now, straight to where I'm going, if you are perhaps thinking suddenly an angel of songs appeared to me and then laid his hands on my throat to clear out whatever obstacles and then all of a sudden my voice began to spring forth and rhymed with melodies and that I have now become a global voice like the others, I'm sad to break this news to you that you are mistaken this time as well.

It's enough trauma for me to come to terms with the fact that I'm not a good singer, but when people hear me speak, they automatically believe and assume that I must be a great singer as well with my "talking voice".?So many times I have had reasons to convince people that I can't sing melodiously with my voice and it breaks my heart every time even though I am satisfied with the fact that I can't sing.

Again, straight to where I'm going, I am a very quiet and shy person, I don't like to talk and I definitely don't like meeting new people, but if you should look at the line of my career it's been basically about talking and meeting new people every day, I can clearly see life messing with me there, trying to get me out of my shell. Then life began to throw its questions at me: "Every man is blessed with a voice, and what you do with your voice is entirely up to you, hence what do you want to do with your voice?" asks life.

I began to experience another stage of life filled with heartbreak, rejection, disappointment, and abandonment. Hence, I had to crawl back into my own shell and cage once again. But this time, instead of sulking up and just letting my brain do the thinking and my mind do the depressing, I started engaging my fingers as well to do some writing.

But in this time and age we are living in, young people do not find reading so pleasurable anymore. If you indeed read this article to this point, then you must be a very special and studious person and I really envy you for that because not many of us like to read. I have got loads of writings such as stories, poems or do I say poetry piled up in my journal. I really don't like to think too highly of myself, even though I have loads of writing, I'm not sure if it's even that good, you know, just like my voice. I wanted to really get those writings out there for people to see and learn a thing from it, if they perhaps understand because sometimes even I don't understand me. But I just can't seem to find how to get these writings to a larger audience.

Then again, life came to me with the same question I didn't have the answer to in the past, "what will you do with your voice?". Then I responded, oh, now I have started writing, my hand is now doing some things I never knew it could, so it's something to brag about right, I said to life.

And once again all I heard was "What will you do with your voice?" Then this time, I had to think deeply about what answer life was expecting me to make out of my situation, I hadn't even nurtured my writing skills yet. What is life actually saying to me? That was when it dawned on me, if you can't sing it, then you can talk it. All those writings were not meant to be hidden in my journal, they are my songs and though I can't sing them I can at least talk them.

I remember one time I wanted to sing during one New Year's Eve some years ago, but everyone kept shouting at me to sing louder, they couldn't hear my voice because obviously, that voice was not meant for singing. I am not singing anymore, I am way over that. This girl wants to start talking in gentle whispers.

So now, CAN YOU ALL HEAR ME?

Now I am struggling with a good ending note for this article, the fact that I had to synonymize most of my words such as "but", "now", "then" and so on so they don't appear too often is a whole lot, and now, okay, now is appearing again, I'm still struggling to have a good ending note.

Whatever life throws at you, understand it, enjoy it, and make a new life out of it. For instance, I don't have a permanent job, which is giving me enough time and opportunity to start talking, you know what they say about an idle hand, its mouth won't stop running. Yeah, that's right, that's how it's being said. So because my mouth won't stop running and my hands won't stop writing I decided to create something out of it. Guess what it is? Nah, not a radio station!

I started my YouTube channel a few weeks ago, where I can now transform my writing into sounds. So I am no longer only writing, I am now bringing my writing to life through my YouTube channel called "VICTORIA WHISPERS". Kindly search for me on YouTube @victoriawhispers or click on the link below to subscribe, comment, like, and share.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3z10KqXSoS3gNoXzBFjPyQ

Those are some of my videos already, these are combinations of multiple videos to paint the picture of my writing, and yes, the voice is purely mine.

I am open to corrections on how this could get better be it the writing, talking or the videography. I really appreciate anything or recommendations that would make me grow and improve.

Most importantly, I am still looking for a permanent job so badly. I am a very diligent and studious person. I am also a fast learner, and the only thing that has let me down in that aspect is singing so it doesn't matter whether I have the skill or not, I will learn it. I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me.

Kindly help me share so that it can get to my employers, I am sure they are on your timeline. I am also open to travel, another good thing life has blessed me with is my singleness, hence I can travel very far.

Okay, that's enough talking now. Thank you for your time and patience in reading all the way, I do not take it for granted. One more favour from you, kindly help me share this article.

I hope you really read this to the end.

Yours,

Oyekanmi Victoria Precious.